THE BRIDGE

Lyrics

[Intro: Jon Keith] Where is God when I feel like takin' my life? It's only a matter of time [Verse 1: Jon Keith] There he is, there he was Lost boy, king's son Make 'em sing, make 'em feel some'in Write until your pen break Or screen crack to heal some'in I'm not better I was eleven the first time I thought to take my life That's too young for that Something in my head ain't right At 24 maybe my chemicals' off It's in my DNA, my heritage off So who's to blame for that? Who can I aim it at? Jesus took the weight for that But how long can I wait for that I'm sick of lyin' They told me time flies, I think it glides I'm only closer to the ground as it passes me by I found a funny video, it was me as a child But I remember that day, that boy was suicidal That boy was closer to the edge than he been in a while He planned to throw himself from a bridge after handing out smiles If you ask him, he'd say he's fine with his hand on the word He might've told you that he was tired, exhausted from work He might've said he felt out of place with his fam or church But he meant he felt out of place bein' alive on this earth, yeah [Chorus: Torey D'Shaun] I know this life is fragrant We all got used to fakin' it I thought that I could take it I guess the truth is, dangerous Don't cry, don't cry Deny, deny, deny Can't let them, don't let 'em Don't let them see [Verse 2: Jon Keith] Truth is, sometimes I pray that melatonin works at speed of light So I can say I ain't had no thoughts of endin' it tonight So I can say that I was fast asleep in God's hand Therapy can't work for me, how could I trust another man Yeah, satan must've thought he hit a gold mine Because I hated me like he hated me the whole time Accepted everything that he would say to me with no qualms Actin' like he's the one that painted me I, I know God is walkin' with me But depression ain't disappearing 'cause He is not Houdini Don't tell me that He ain't there just 'cause you see me bleeding You keep talkin' like you see through me Then you gon' have to see me, for real True hope comes in darkest places 'Cause when I made my bed in hell He was face to face And so I tatted Coram Deo, that's my invitation I know His presence always thick, it's in the thinnest spaces Yeah, but I'm still here Still healin', I'm still hurtin' That kid somewhere that been on the edge, remind me it's worth it We fightin' lions, walkin' on ropes, we live at the circus But Jesus chose to die so I wouldn't I'm here on purpose, yeah [Outro: Jon Keith] Now I bow my head and pray Father, listen to the pain Thank You for all of Your grace on me One day I'll be okay (Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay) Show me one day I'll be okay (Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay) Oh, I know now one day I'll be okay