Playbill (feat. Billy Porter)

Lyrics

I flashed the playbill from that Sondheim show Still too present in my mind You asked if i'd just seen that Sondheim show And didn't i love it And isn't it encouraging That love can be blind I laughed and said, one hates that leading character In proportion to how desperately they've shown their own need I said, I really loathed that character And you graciously agreed You know I don't do this Sitting in bars It must show as I stumble through this Baring my past And cataloging scars Opening to you Not something that i normally would do Sure, the alcohol and smokescreen make it easier Drink by drink Flirt by flirt Vertical mile by mile Climbing through the rocks and the dirt To the top of a hope And the brink of a hurt But I'm hеartened by your smile Or is it just thе smile You bestow on anyone Who reflects you, golden, in his eyes Was a hint of promise in that smile? Or simply common courtesy? Platonic curiosity? All that there will ever be Were you really seeing me Possibly admiring my style? Feeling some connection? Or were you merely mesmerized By your own adorable Adored reflection? You're too young I'm too old Who knows, maybe i'm not You're too beautiful I'm too plain It's impossible It's a joke But somehow, while we spoke I forgot Did I say the right thing Was I clever Was I crude Should I have stuck with the disinterested, polite thing? Was i forward to the point of being rude? When I suddenly grew shy Did my charm trickle dry Or did you find my shyness Charming? When i handed you my card Was it alarming? Or delightfully disarming? I can't guess When I bolted for the door Did I leave you wanting more? Or wishing I'd monopolized you less? I stayed as long as I could Stall And now I'm home again Already trying far too hard Not to wait for you to find my card And Call