Farewell

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Is there anything that I wrote, somewhere back in the archives Somethin' I could bring from then and now when it's off time Feel like lately I been fadin' into a grey sky I just wanna make another hit 'fore I say bye Somethin' in me just won't let it go (Go, go, go) Know the day I do, I'm signin' off for the last time Everytime I think about it, water in both eyes Wish I could reverse it and go back to my first time Wish I didn't waste so much drinkin' in all those clubs Wish I never worried 'bout pleasing people for lovе Wish I didn't try to be someone I nеver was Time is a currency, speed and ride it to the sun No really I mean it, you will never get it back Every second is feeding, even while you listening to this your body is leaving Matter fact this ain't a song, it's me vocally grieving I know it's not the words you wanna hear ending the season [Break] I know it's not what they wanna hear but, it's the truth And you know what they say about the truth 'Cause if I can't live and tell my truth then, who am I really? Yeah [Verse 2] If I can't be honest with myself, I'll never tell the truth to you Rap has been a struggle but better than what I used to do Plus it helped to heal the anxiety I was dealin' with Nothin' else was workin' and prescriptions almost killed the kid If that didn't do it, eviction notices nearly did Decidin' which utility to pay so I could feed my kids Late night drivin' Uber, some people are weirdos I got stories but the kids listenin' couldn't hear those Working odds and ins Got no time for my friends I was focused at home, making sure wifey's needs were met Wakin' up early just to have breakfast for both my kin Tryin' to squeeze in three hours of sleep and do it again Lock myself in the studio any chance I could get Couldn't afford to throw up a brick, I had to be wet Couldn't afford to pay for that mix, that was a debt Watching tutorials in my day job, you bet Hearin' 'bout all the steps that it took for me tryna win I know you wanna ask me if I would do it again All the betrayal, taken advantage of by your friends All of the budgets blown and you do it over again No job, security, and no dental and health plans No second chance, flyin' the plane, tryin' to land The blessing of doing what others lucky to have a laugh If you could see it through, you gon' live like none of them can And it's worth it, what I'm sharing is energy with the fans And settin' up the future to pave a road for the grands I worked a little harder and sacrificed what I had But now I'm goin' home to enjoy it all with my fam, yeah [Outro] I'll never forget what gave me that push to take that leap of faith Um, to pursue what I love doing My passion, my dream, um I was workin' at this software company, sellin' accounting software And um, one of my accounts that I managed This gentleman was just sittin' around, and He asked me one day, he said "Joey, if there's any one thing in life you could be doing right now, what would it be?" And I said music I know that's what I wanted to do, you know I didn't skip a beat at all He said "So why aren't you doin' it?" And it hit me right between the chest because nobody had ever confronted me like that before You know, I never saw passions and reality as somethin' that like blended together You know I always saw it as, yeah, it's for some people but not for everybody He says "Listen, let me tell you a story So I'm sixty-five When I was seventeen I was a semi-pro surfer Had endorsements ready for me, the whole nine When I was eighteen I was gonna leave home and go pro My dad pulled me aside and, told me that [?] listen You're gonna walk away from this thing And you're gonna go be an accountant, you're gonna go to school So I listened to my dad, and went to school Put my dream away and never went back to it again" He says "I've had, you know now years later [?] bypass surgery, quality of life is poor And, it's attributed to the fact that I'm doin' somethin' that I don't love doin' I'm not passionate about it So although I've had business success I've made a lot of money I haven't enjoyed my life, the way I know I would've If I'd done what I loved doing" He says "So if you're still young Go chase your dream, go chase your passion And trust me, you'll be happy" And so I pushed back I said, "Well, you know, how is that even realistic?" And he said "Let me tell you something Joey, passion breeds two things It breeds persistence, and it breeds perseverance" He says "It breeds persistence to make you, press through all the 'No's' And it gives you perseverance to walk up all the mountaintops And all the valley lows, and break through every door that's in your way" He says "Trust me" and so Thirty days later Put in my two week notice, walked away from my job And I did odds and ends and whatnot here and there to make, ends meet, pay the bills But, ultimately, I took that leap of faith At that moment in time to chase after it And while it's been hard, it's been a struggle, it's never been easy I've learned so much I keep knockin' on doors when I get "No's" I press through every time there's an obstacle I've, educated myself Because it's somethin' that I love to do, I'm passionate about it I want nothin' more You know what I'm sayin', and so When you identify what you're passionate about And you chase that thing Everybody else gon' tell you it's unrealistic But if you do it You're gonna be happy And you're gonna make the greatest impact In your life because it's what you were made to do