Different Love

Lyrics

[Verse] It go, off with my sabbatical Took a few years 'cause Slaughter's what I had to do (What up?) Which only brings me to now, and I oughta be erratical I say that 'cause my autobiographical is more so just a graph of you I ain't mad, you did more than what I asked of you As for me, I did less than what I could've So though we were a hit had to cancel that show And now my standards so low I be amped when she not a hoe But what you doing right now is real commendable, takes strength to do 'Cause between us there's some deep roots there I gave you the best dick you ever got in your life And stupid me thought it would be enough to keep you there I thought you loved football, I was running through the hole with the stiff arm But got disarmed, guess it was just harm I ain't need to fuck, I was looking for a peer They say once you stop looking what you looking for appears You were stronger than I pictured you, much stronger than me And almost just as strong as John And John, oh, that's just a friend of my moms With tubes coming out his nose, but shit I never knew why But he was born with his heart on the right side of his chest No, for real, his heart's in the right side of his chest (Word) Doctors confused, ain't much that they can do But impute and say it ain't on the right side of his chest Scared he might die in his sleep, deep Every time he cough wonders if it's a cough or it's a symptom Us, we'll get better later He gon' live his whole life waking up every morning to a respirator So I don't never say what I can't do If he can be happy with life than nigga I can too (Fuck it, I can too) While José wanna die Ain't tell nobody, but eyeing his eyes feel I should probably identify Said everyday he lives with pain and wanna end it Something's wired wrong in your brain, you gotta mend it Had a bad breakup and let it expose dude But if she was getting you high then she would get you low too So who's there to wait on me? Y'all just get it off, y'all've put the weight on me Nigga look me in my eyes, it was amazing to me And said you don't understand, you not as crazy as me You got gall, nigga, I'm the most mentally flawed nigga You not even built to withstand all I've endured, nigga You know shit about the thoughts in my head Or the strength I need daily just to get out of bed Just to open my eyes, nigga, open your eyes The words spoken of wise, you just know in disguise We can end this right here, I got nuttin' more to say to ya You ain't never met another fucking nigga crazier Blank stare, couldn't believe 'em Can't chastised me 'cause I got help when you need some I could give less than a fuck and not a damn I never be apologetic over who I am I'm the same me, nothing changes when the riches do But niggas wanna suck you dry just like the bitches do They enter your mentions, sucks to be the center of attention When you can't even center your attention Yeah, so I'm fucking out of frustration They love every second and accuse me of persuasion Jam was a cancer to me, I had to rid it Red got in her feelings fast, but won't admit it Dawn I was bored then, never really smithen V got threatened by the thought of competition Malo wanna fuck all day, don't know how She why I got a Viagra in my wallet right now Steph kept it simple, loved me for my mental B got a nigga, but she used me as her rental And you, you just give me resistance Say you need a comfort zone, for you it's distance I tell 'em all I'm not available emotionally They start giving me advice like they coaching me I don't even ask it, it's something 'bout Bipolar sociopath shit, they just find it attractive Anti-social, but I mingle now But I've been arguing much more since I've been single, how? Tell me is this a relationship or just a fuckship? Whatever situation it is it's all fuck shit I'll admit, I might love a lil differently As for them, they'd all love to see a different me Some cried to me, some are begging for it Some wanna see that change, but not be present for it You just act so frightened Ignoring all logic, now she won't buy in Even in your absence my feelings are heightened Though I know some love's lost, it's not on my end [Outro] It's not mine, it's not mine at all [?]