Fear of Flying

Lyrics

[Verse 1: Jered Sanders] Man, I been trying to figure this out Ain't living but I ain't dying Been feeling I'm down and out But I got a fear of flying it seems I'm in the water but it's boiling or a drought So either I'm feeling thirsty or pouring out a spout I been living out of spite, I been sleeping on the couch I been screaming out for Christ, I been quiet as a mouse In my prayer closet wondering if God is in my house Cause if I'm blessed and highly favored Why I'm lying to my spouse Man, a high calling ain't the words flying out my mouth Ain't a gentle tone with Quaje, then what the fuss about Like your babies ain't enough to measure all your footsteps And every bit of apathy ain't killing off your clout Like that wasn't you Balling on your living room carpet And praying God would make over And how your heart was the target How you praying for good But you been living like the Saw clown Man you ain't really scared to fly [Chorus: Jered Sanders] You too busy trying to fall down, huh Man you ain't really scared to fly You too busy trying to fall down, huh Man you ain't really scared to fly You too busy trying to fall down, huh (Fall down, fall down, fall down) Man you ain't really scared to fly You too busy trying to fall down, huh (Fall down, down) You too busy trying to fall down [Verse 2: Jered Sanders] What if I told you that the crown full of thorns Wasn't the last time I drifted and I lied on the Lord, huh What if I told you how the waters got choppy When the lights got dimmer and the tithes got short Man I don't need a metaphorical discourse The devil was alive on the side with the pitchfork I'm narrow road walking can't deny I done slipped off The thorn on my side feeling like its a clip tossed, bang But don't you judge me like you never sin Man, I'm dying enough inside trying to hold this in And it's a struggle trying not to be a rolling stone They lining up to knock me down like some bowling pins I know the righteous lining up like "here we go again" Another Christ-repping rapper out condoning sin But I'm a love 'em though they hate me I know I been the Saw Clown I'm just confessing all my flaws [Chorus: Jered Sanders] Hope you praying as I fall down Now as I'm falling out the sky Hope you praying as I fall down You see I'm falling out the sky Hope you praying as I fall down (Fall down, fall down, fall down) Man it ain't easy trying to fly Hope you praying as I fall down (Fall down, down) Hope you praying while I fall down [Outro: Jered Sanders] Man I ain't lying there's cyanide in my heart I fear for the repercussions I'm trying to kill the thought I know the Devil be coming with that fufu A wise man told me I'll only crawl Not cause I'm scared of flying But cause I'm scared to fall