Killing Myself

Lyrics

[Intro] Oh, oh Oh, oh (Stay with Vegas on the wave) [Verse] In this space I'm at, so dark and I can't figure who I am Fake persona nigga flexin', imagery for Instagram Told you from the start his ass façade, he don't wan' be his self Showin' signs that he weak, lowkey, it's a cry for help Lost some brothers to that cutter, love they moms, I cry for them In this world, I got my brothers, hope they know I'll die for them Ride for them boys like no other, tryna keep them positive Down to like my last dollar, ain't a thing that I won't give Ridin' slow and my eyes low, I'm on drugs I know my heart really gone, but I need lovе Like, who gon' be right herе to wipe my tears? I need a hug The street life that I live, havin' no fear, gotta man up But I deal with it on my own, I right myself when wrong Love yourself, to each his own, niggas don't be your bro Like, how the hell did I survive and the world so cold? It got me feelin' like, fuck the world with no rubber on I'm tryna put this shit in words, like, how do I explain? It's like I'm talkin' to myself, keep sayin' the same thing I get high like paper planes, I'm tryna get up out this rain Lost my cousin, then my mind changed, I wish I died that day Steadin' doin' drugs, tryna keep from feelin' awful If I was there with Leek and John, I swear I wouldn't have lost them It's hard for me to love when, mentally, I need a doctor I wish Ralo seen me now, look at your boy, a baller Hide my pain behind these bust-down rings All this money I make, it brought me more pain Shit don't change nothin', but it change everything I had to crawl when niggas ran, they left me out to hang Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, I don't want this pain But I keep stride I'm runnin' at a steady pace even though one day it's gonna be my time Tell my mama don't cry, tell my bitch to move on You got a life to live, I'll help find you new love while I'm dead and gone I'll be watchin' from the sky (From the sky), girl, in spirit, I'll still be holdin' on Tryna figure out what the fuck that they want Everybody call on me, who I depend on? They won't realize my importance until I'm dead and gone That shit hurt, but it's the truth, niggas be dead wrong (Oh, ah) Callin' up to God right now (Right now) This shit hard, I'm on my own holdin' it down (Holdin' it down) I lost my heart at war, now lookin' forward, it'll never be found Why everybody draggin' me down? (Me down) Took what they could, left me to bleed out Ma, I'm askin' you, like, can you call my granny 'cause I wanna kill myself right now? [Outro] Oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh