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[Verse 1] Pencilin' on a pad I been on my thoughts, like crazy, I need you bad Prayers to the most high when I'm most high Fuck a good day, I'm happier when I'm sad I been on the road and speakin' to no one else The money come in low, I'm dealin' with what I'm dealt This is for my unborn child, needing my help I'm lookin' for the type of the freedom that I ain't felt It's only gone to waste if you buyin' a Gucci belt But we Gucci when we excel and that coochi is not for sale Damn, don't you leave me when I rebel My baby says she loves me, but she needs me to be myself Room full of vultures, cool, I'm coastin' You be boastin', chain on flex, like you be chokin' Ain't no jokin', I been floatin' Off that green I'm smokin', they don't want this Smoke when I step up, east side resident DREAMCLUB president, made it out the ends and I'm the evidence Still gotta check on my mama, make sure she good She loves it when I come back for Christmas and eat the food There's nothin' like a blessing that's precious to what you do I'm learnin' to be honest with people that needed truth I'm keepin' it one hundred, I'm hopin' you keep it, two See, growin' is a process, I needed to see it through [Chorus] Is this what you want from me? I give you all of me What it's supposed to be I'm learning on keepin' you closer Scared that my heart's gone colder Grindin' it out 'til it's over It's how it goes, and now you know [Verse 2] Workin' it while I can Promise is forever, I'm startin' to understand The boulder's on my shoulders, I'm choosin' to take a stand I gotta show the way for our people to make it out I was youth club chilling Kickin' ball when they gave the notice for eviction Sixteen had about five bills for it I gave it to my moms and told her how's that for it? She told me that it's cool, that's at least a couple months I could tell by the look on her face it wasn't enough Fuck it, we just roll with the punches 'cause that's what's up And our people would try and front Acting like they got it, but fuck it, it's what they want I never live my life through the vision of someone else I really gotta see, get a feel for it for myself Couple years back I was feelin' it with my health Yeah, I put on weight, I was hidin' from what I felt Bills, bills, bills had me feelin' like I ain't shit Splashed a couple thousand, was strugglin' with the rent Thinkin' to myself, "How I get this deep? How I'm deep in the hole, and how my fam don't know?" Tryna keep the smile good to avoid convo But that shit build up and them tears build up 'Till you're lookin' for a shoulder you can lean on Just to get the steam off, thinkin' why I kept closed up Damn [Chorus] Is this what you want from me? I give you all of me What it's supposed to be I'm learnin on keepin' you closer Scared that my heart's gone colder Ridin' it out 'til it's over It's how it goes, and now you know [Post-Chorus] That I been patient lately And though I been racin' lately All I know is love can save Ahh, yeah (Ahh, yeah) Prayin' that this world don't take me, no Everything I gave to my heart and soul Remember for somethin' that was real and not false Love me as I am, not when I go , like I know