Father I Turn To You

Lyrics

V.1 See I remember back then Back when I was lacking in understanding Gospel rapping but words and actions just wasn't matching Knowledge I was lacking Weak defence had me entangled and trapped in the sins I preach against Guilt complex is my recompense I'm sliding Why didn't I just speak to my friends instead of hiding Told the whole clan the old man died in baptism Who was I kidding, fact is that I was backslidden Lacking vision with my candle hidden undercovers I'm only on evangelism when I'm with my brothers Secret lovers with the devil's old lies Denied the Most High Too scared to break the soul ties So I continued doing shows and tours Hope nobody knows what goes on behind closed doors Surrounded by so-called friends Which one could I call on? Tried to tell them I was all right but I was all wrong V.2 See I was blaming Satan and the world for my spiritual state of health Till I checked out flesh in the mirror and spelled self Was the prime suspect and culprit Preaching from the highest pulpit but in the prayer room I'm claustrophobic I know it's deep, I know I'm weak You know me, forever gossiping But when it's time for witnessing I'm slow to speak When it's time to pray, I go to sleep Time to fast, I go and eat Time to stand and praise, I rather hold a seat Back row, act low, hoping nobody notice me Coz it ain't hard to see, I'm not where I'm supposed to be But I don't wanna hear no lecture Coz all I got is peer pressure messing with my head like a hairdresser It's stressing me out, doubt and fear Had me in Trafalgar Square nearly drowning in beer Loud and clear I need a change but I didn't know how Figured maybe there'd be safety in the marital vows Thought that I could make a fresh start All I did was break a fresh heart We like vampires when it gets dark Decided that we best part My problems need to be solved And I'd be just a fool to get another involved I need to make a resolve Either be hot or be cold Revelation 3:16 has got to be told Lukewarmers are gonna be puke from the Lord's mouth I read the chapter and knew I had to choose now My head bowed as mad tears fell to the ground Thinking of days when I was proud to be called God's child No it's all wild, I've been living foul I wanna turn around and live a lifestyle to make Christ smile For too long I've been missing my place, dissing His grace And every time I sin it's like I spit in His face Time for living by faith, time for giving Him praise Time to fall prostrate on my face, no time to waste I said...