いつもシミュレーション (Always a Simulation in My Mind)

Song Meaning

Always a Simulation in My Mind" dives into the anxious headspace of overthinking. The lyrics open with a universal question: "なぜここにいるの?" (Why are we here?). This existential query quickly grounds itself in the pressure to avoid mistakes and the fear of shame. It paints a picture of minds constantly running scenarios. A core tension emerges between the desire for authenticity and the overwhelming fear of vulnerability. The narrators lament becoming "偽物になるのが上手くなったり" (good at being fake), driven by the weight of "知りすぎた僕等 怖いものばかり" (we who know too much, only fear). This collective burden of knowledge seems to paralyze, leading to a retreat into internal simulations rather than genuine engagement. The lyrics powerfully juxtapose personal anxiety with global tragedy. While one narrator recalls a nostalgic "夏の香りと君の影," the other starkly notes, "海の向こうの世界ではさ 爆弾が今落ちる." This contrast highlights how internal struggles persist even against a backdrop of immense external conflict, making the "シミュレーション" feel both a coping mechanism and a potential distraction from real life. Ultimately, the lyrics resonate by exposing the self-defeating nature of constant self-preservation. The repeated chorus warns that "裏側ばっか眺めてちゃ表の綺麗さには辿りつけないな" (if we only look at the underside, we'll never reach the beauty of the surface). This suggests that by meticulously planning to avoid every misstep, we risk missing the genuine experiences and beauty that come with simply living. The direct challenge, "隠してんじゃねえ" (don't hide it), serves as a poignant call to shed the simulated self.