Night In October

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I woke up kneeling in the backyard With a stain I can't begin to get clean I tore the flowers out of my jaw Like a garden, I grew bare and empty Please don't get too close [Chorus] I fell out of a dream into my death Won't remember a thing until I hit the bottom And I don't know what it means, try to forget I just wanna believe I kept it all in my head [Refrain] Can I make it all much better if I find a reason why? Feel like I wanna tear this body apart and make it whole again [Verse 2] I cough up feelings of a new scar I heard everyone laughing at me Hold my breath until it goes dark Like a season I still carry gently [Chorus] I fell out of a dream into my death Won't remember a thing until I hit the bottom And I don't know what it means, try to forget I just wanna believe I kept it all [Bridge] Like a heart attack with everyone involved Tried to fight it back, we knew that I was so unwell Took off without a warning, felt different in the morning A heart attack with everyone involved Like an atom bomb collapsing underneath my shell Hollow and distorted, different in the morning [Outro] And I made it all much better when I found a reason why I wanna tear my body apart and make it whole again Can I make it all much better if I find a reason why? Feel like I wanna tear this body apart and make it whole again