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[Verse 1 - Ghetts] 6 months of pains in my leg Went to the GP and they gave me the same thing again Painkillers ain't killing the pain though And every visit I take notes They never listen, what do they know? It's just alright, now I need an MRI Seven weeks and it's finally scan time I'm getting weak, I ain't tryna be flat line I got friends I never need on stand by The results are in, I received them, its a landmine Lookin' in the mirror like you can't die yet The kind of news that you can't digest, you can't die Jess Why me? Why not she? Now I need a CT and biopsy Baby father tried drop me, things became harder for me and my offspring Crying on a hard shoulder, osteosarcoma For anyone who don't know, sounds like I need a heart donor But I been diagnosed with a cancer that you won't find in most But it's inside my bones, I hope they find an antidote or an answer And they're talking amputation, no more standing ovations Overstand what I'm saying How can a 3 year old hold my hand through this mayhem [Chorus] Too much to live for I don't wanna miss you no Wipe your tears Face your fears for me I'll be here for you Like you'll be here for me [Verse 2 - Ghetts] Let me paint this picture, portrait for the people 4 days on chemo Fuck this I need weed tho Hair loss, feels like it was torn off Only saw my reflection when tears dropped Never looked in the mirror for a month I say I'm a 10 on a normal day, but hear what Today, I would dare not Now it's time for my leg operation But by now it's in my lungs, that's a next complication I've got to speak to my son, that's a next conversation It's hard being a mum, with death confirmation Back on the chemo it's not working though No one wants to work when it's work involved I'm looking for other solutions, google But my internet's working slow And everyone's saying I'm giving up Coming off chemo, I don't give a fuck Where's my niggas I rave with? Where's my niggas that I was there for when they needed me most? I came quick, this ain't the same shit Mum's been a rock, dad's been a broken man Ellie's been an open hand Aaron's my nigga, he overstands Ghetts is my high when I'm sober fam Got two brothers, one's in jail The other one lost his son to cancer at 8 years old And it must be hell Kayleigh's been a mum for my son in this fuckree world And last time I spoke to mumma I told her tell god I ain't ready yet I'm sorry I can't come as well P.S Daddy's youngest girl [Chorus] Too much to live for I don't wanna miss you no Wipe your tears Face your fears for me I'll be here for you Like you'll be here for me Too much to live for I don't wanna miss you no Wipe your tears Face your fears for me I'll be here for you Like you'll be here for me [Verse 3 - Ghetts] Fighter mode, green juices and a NutriBullet I only want a destiny that I control I don't feel sorry for myself anymore It's all mind control I left it in God's hands It's out of my control Got plans, got a life you know God damn I would like to roll so (turn up) Anywhere, we're there (turn up) 22 Magnums (turn up) Your concerns don't concern us, turn up [Bridge 1 - ?] I ain't the walking dead I don't wanna live I'd rather walk instead Don't feel sorry for me Cancer ain't morgueing Jess [Verse 4 - Ghetts] They say no one survives what I got Well I'm writing this letter cause I feel like they're writing me off Is it right? Is it wrong? I've been righting my wrongs Gave my life to God, and I ain't perfect still But I'm a person still, with a purpose still I got a new ting and it's working still Aa lot of my time on my hands I ain't working still Got to go back on the chemo, thoughts in the back of my mind I wonder if it's worth it still [Bridge 2 - ?] Oh here we go again Go to give it a go again I'm nervous still You wouldn't know I was terminally ill [Chorus] Too much to live for I don't wanna miss you no Wipe your tears Face your fears for me I'll be here for you Like you'll be here for me Too much to live for I don't wanna miss you no Wipe your tears Face your fears for me I'll be here for you Like you'll be here for me