I Wonder

Lyrics

I miss some people But having them around ain't good for my mental health I had this ting that worked in Harrods East boy but I know central well Every time she spoke, I checked my balance Ask Celine what I spent on Chanel Ask Chanel what I spent on Celine Then ask them both what I spent on myself Old MCs that have fell off are calling me 'Cah them boy need resurrecting I've done things for n****s I never mentioned Then thеy forget themselvеs when they get attention You ever had a convo and felt drained? Ever been able and felt caned? Ever been the worst version of you And looked in the mirror and still felt vain? I ain't nuttin' like them man The money gave them confidence The chain made them feel like someone The fame gave them bravado I've been like this from way back Ask anybody my age in Plaistow They'll tell you Reggie been lit from wah day Even when it was Diadoras and socks from Donnay Gyal are asking my skin care routine I just drink from the fountain of youth I was in a Michelin star restaurant You won't believe what I found in my food A gyal I don't even know just told me she proud of me I said "I'm proud of me too" After all I've achieved, just give me the seeds And I'll wait for the flowers to bloom I don't worship the sun, I don't ask the universe And I don't howl at the moon Me and the holy trinity speak directly That's why I'm a powerful yout' All, all man know is win-win-win I ain't even got an hour to lose L1, R2, double X, back, forward I make powerful moves These ain't lyrics, they're motion pictures I've been reading my Bible a lot lately I'm inspired by the coldest scriptures Wanna go where Enoch went I wanna see what Moses witnessed That's why I'm ultra instinctive When I'm back, they'll notice the difference I'm in the vocal booth confessing All I need's a mic and compression You see, my ting's too compelling I paid my dues, paid homage Paid respect and even paid concessions Now all I need is God's blessing I ain't one of them 'let it go' Christians I'm one of them 'don't try my man, you never know' Christians I'm one of them 'don't diss God when I'm here 'Cah trust me, I'll get involved' Christians I'm one of them 'send that pagan a message And lick the envelope' Christians, still conflicted Man are like 'ain't you mentioned no Christians?' If I kill another pagan I just feel like I must be doing the Lord's work Man want peace but there ain't no peace There's only peace when man's willing to war first Leonardo, Van Gogh, Picasso Trust me, my brudda, I'm willing to draw first Too old to play 'knock, knock, who's there?', my boy I just kick in the door first I done told them already I own fields of unlimited corn (war) And plus, and when I finish, it's clinical form (sworn) That's a biblical storm End days, I set pace Ten plagues, you've all been warned I swear on the Bible, I can smell fear on arrival I can smell fear on a rival All I need is an ear and an eyeball And I can see and I can hear who's reliable Oh, you rep where you're from and I rate that But don't make your whole area entitled I'm from where most kids go hard 'Cah we see what it took for our parents' survival Maximum efforts and minimum wages I used to dream of platinum records and killing them stages Every one of our debts have been settled I'm rid of those bailiffs But I'm a creature of habit and still do Lidl's, not Sainsbury's Limousine tints on the whip 'Cause everyone's a little invasive Me and bro on the phone, we're just reasoning Said he knows like he's had his palm read He knows like he spoke to a medium I was a prodigal son as a teen But as an OG, I'm obedient Still I blend in anywhere Bring back the old me and go chameleon