Lyrics

I won't hold my tongue. I'm not okay without you here. I guess what's done is done. I feel so exposed without you near. And I won't say that I'm okay 'Cause you taught me not to lie So know that I'll miss you every day. You always taught me to be good And always do my best to be selfless But I know that God is holding you And I am so damn jealous. 'Cause I miss your arms around me And the way you make me laugh Now I'm stuck inside this prison That says you're never coming back So I'm sitting in my room As I try to write this song I'm so sorry that it's not good enough It's just that everything seems wrong. And I keep bursting into tears Because the pain won't go away Because the father took my best friend And said she cannot come out to play. Anymore. I won't hold my tongue I'm not okay without you here I won't hold my tongue I'm not okay without you here I won't hold my tongue I'm not okay without you here I guess what's done is done. But I just feel so exposed without you near And I won't say that I'm okay Cause you taught me not to lie So know I'll miss you everyday You always taught me to be good And always do my best to be selfless But I know that God is holding you And I am so damn jealous 'Cause I miss your arms around me And the way you make me laugh Now I'm stuck inside this prison That says you're never coming back So I'm sitting in my room As I try to write this song I'm so sorry that it's not good enough It's just that everything seems wrong But I will try my best to be good So I can pay my way Straight through the pearly gates Into your arms so we can play Once more Grandma, Uh, I love God with all my heart and the only reason that isn't stated in my life is because of you And I don't really understand the God that you introduced me to would take you away so fast when you were the only person to ever understand a thing I ever said and I really don't know how to deal with this anymore and, I'm just really not okay with this and I miss you I understand that you're in heaven but, I- I want to be selfish. I don't want you to be in heaven. I want you to be back down here, I don't want you to be there. I want you to be here. What am I supposed to do now? That's all I'm asking.