Change My Past

Lyrics

[Intro: Danny Case] It never goes away, I'm always looking back Am I ever gonna change, ever gonna change, change my past? [Verse 1: Matt Brandyberry] Feeling a type of way 'bout the past that I run from Night and day fade to black when I'm undone I feel lost, constantly exhausted, double-crossed Still haunted by the monster I once was And when the sun's gone and there's no escape I feel the darkness take shape and show face There's no place, I never feel safe There's no change, hope fades, and I'll never be okay Never be the same, but I always feel close to Losing everything, it's almost like I'm supposed to I chose you, let you in and gave you a home to Become a part of me, but now I'm looking to ghost you I hoped you disappear, but you're attached I painted the mirror, I tried breaking the glass I see my face in the cracks, a refraction, I'm abstract Can't run from the past, but I'm keeping my bags packed [Chorus: Danny Case] It never goes away, I'm always looking back Am I ever gonna change, ever gonna change, change my past? I'll never be okay, I'm seconds from collapse Am I ever gonna change, ever gonna change, change my past? [Verse 2: Matt Brandyberry] Gone is the vessel, now there's nothing inside me And God and the Devil are the voices behind me But they lie, designing blue skies While they guide me to a pasture where nobody will find me Down a road that I'm hoping to steer through To a home I thought I left in the rearview To a weird room, nothing to peer through Doors shut, curtains drawn, nobody can hear you All this time I've been holding myself hostage My hands tied and a blindfolded conscience Brainwashed and overly cautious I'm talking to myself in the cell that we're locked in A situation, I'm dying for some relief Negotiating the terms for my release I find keys to set myself free, then history repeats Nothing can save me [Chorus: Danny Case] It never goes away, I'm always looking back Am I ever gonna change, ever gonna change, change my past? I'll never be okay, I'm seconds from collapse Am I ever gonna change, ever gonna change, change my past? [Bridge: Danny Case] And I would be nothing without you And all that you made me And I would be nothing without you And how you destroy me [Chorus: Danny Case] It never goes away, I'm always looking back Am I ever gonna change, ever gonna change, change my past? I'll never be okay, I'm seconds from collapse Am I ever gonna change, ever gonna change, change my past?