If I Can’t Hear The Music

Lyrics

[Saki Arima: spoken] Follow the score, Kōsei [Kōsei Arima: Verse 1] I'm sorry I have failed I wanted to do better I tried to be the son who you expected me to be [Saki: spoken] Follow the score precisely [Kōsei: sung] I've shamed this broken home I've lost to this piano But still, I'm in the battle, I'm my own worst enemy [Saki: spoken] It has to be perfect [Kōsei: Pre-Chorus] Where's my choice? The black or white voice? Thrown into the water, but I've never swam Replaying your death Holding my breath I'm not mad, I can't stand who I am [Chorus] If I can't hear the music If I can't hear the sound Then I'll drown in the memory I'm gasping for air Is my answer out there? What more can I give? Help me, how can I live If I can't hear the music? Though I know it by heart Every note disappears from me Oh, Mother, forgive me You can't be here with me I'll go on, but how If I can't hear the music right now [Verse 2] The human metronome Played every phrase in rhythm Don't wanna be the victim, but now I have lost my way I can't win this war If I lay down my weapon It's me against the shadow of the boy who used to play [Pre-Chorus] I can't recognize these black and white lies They're mocking what's left of all that I knew In over my head, I'll end up I'm dead Mother, please tell me what to do [Chorus] If I can't hear the music If I can't hear the sound Then I'll drown in the memory The time is too high Didn't want you to die I've got no more to give Help me, how can I live If I can't hear the music As the waves take me out Oh, the silence is deafening Oh, Mother, it kills me To know that I'm guilty I'll go on, but how If I can't hear the music right now [Kōsei (Ensemble): Bridge] My one opponent (Ah) Staring at me Can you save me? (Ah) Why won't you save me? God, I hate you (Ah, ah, ah) But I need you To save me from myself [Pre-Chorus] It's the end of my rope (Rope) I'm choking on hope (On hope) If I let go, will I be free? (Go) No one understands (No one understands) The blood on my hands (My hands) Mother, where are you? (Ah) Please don't hate me (Ah) [Saki: spoken] I can't hold your hand forever, Kōsei I can't hold your hand once I'm gone [Kōsei: Chorus] If I can't hear the music If I can't hear the sound Let me drown in the memory I'm lost on my own in this cursed monotone I've got no more to give Help me, I want to live If I can't hear the music If I've got no way out Then I'm ending your legacy Can you hear me crying? I'm living or dying I'll go on but how If I can't hear the music right now?