Who Am I

Lyrics

[Ad-Libs: 360] Uh Yeah Yeah Yo [Verse 1: 360] Ayo, honestly I try and keep my head in the sky And keep reminding people always that it's better to fly It's meant to be fine, life should get better with time But it's hard to see the positive in negative vibes And I'll never be remembering the lessons that they sold us Yeah, I've got some shows but no energy to roll up It's getting hard to take the pressure on my shoulders The need to succeed is getting stressful now I'm older Pez, I'm praying that our chemistry will hold up I hate always pretending to my parents I'm a solider And if it really came to offing myself I would, to make them happy I would offer myself And in five years I'll go and get a job if it helps But give me one shot, and if it doesn't work I'll fuck off And with music, yo, I'm hungry with an appetite I'd rather die than sacrifice where my passion lies I'm on the grind to make it happen, I don't fantasise I'm really living right now, I don't need to act alive You're scared of losing your job but it's not anything You need to understand prosperity's not everything Religious nuts who think they've come to meet their maker You don't worship anything except a fuckin' piece of paper Don't get me wrong, yo, I would love to see a saviour But I got a life to live, I'll deal with brother Jesus later And talk about world leaders getting named in songs Anybody put into power's gonna get hated on And yo, I'm sorry, yo, this verse might be crazy long But I'm just writing every train of thought my brain is on [Ad-Libs: PEZ] Yeah Real talk, uh [Verse 2: PEZ] So do we have a cause? I wonder, damn, I'm too undermanned Tryin' to understand what this planet's for There's a manic force that's attacking back and forth Anxious thoughts only 'cause they only make me panic more Afraid to sleep 'cause the same dreams I had before Keep on coming back for more and so the pain repeats Honestly, I know there's probably a way to be free of this shit But I'm not seeing it, shit See, I'm well aware that my awareness is a rareness But I'm scared it's gonna be the death of me 'cause it's tempting me Damn, I hope that's not the reason it all ends for me I'll try to keep my head up-up until the Reaper's sent for me But there's these questions and they never seem to let me be Every week so tense, shit, it's an effort just to get to sleep I feel my body now covered in tension I didn't wanna end up here, nah, I had other intentions If I was different then maybe I'd see some movement I'd take it and keep on moving, nah, I'm just being stupid The truth is, I can see this wisdom is a gift I don't know why I always try to say it isn't 'cause it is But I can also see the reason they say ignorance is bliss Looking back from where I'm at, see, it's the innocence I miss Give me just a little bit, if there was anything that I could Wish for with a wish, I'd say you've gotta know I wanna go Back, back, and live with a mind Back in a simpler time so I don't think all the time (Time) Shit, I'm sorry if I'm raving on, I didn't mean to take this long But that was just the train of thought my brain was on