Song Meaning

The lyrics paint a picture of someone grappling with past trauma and the difficult choices that followed. The opening lines, "Race / I've got a brand new list / Stay true to size / Made for you to fit / Into this mess," suggest an attempt to conform or adapt to a chaotic situation, perhaps by adhering to external expectations or a predetermined role. This effort feels less like genuine self-expression and more like fitting oneself into a pre-existing, problematic structure. The core tension arises from the repeated phrase "Tamed this trauma," juxtaposed with the admission of making "weak decision[s]" and taking "worst tuition." It seems the narrator has tried to control or manage their past pain, but the process has led to further complications and a sense of being diminished. The idea of "Indivision" and taking "all intentions" implies a loss of clarity or purpose, where good intentions have been corrupted or overshadowed by the struggle itself. The most striking element is the cyclical nature of the narrative, reinforced by the repetition of key phrases like "Made for you to fit / Into this mess" and the overwhelming sense of having "made it too tall." This repetition underscores a feeling of being trapped, where efforts to resolve issues only seem to amplify them. The final lines, "Start me up / What's to break / This is what I chose to be / This is what I take," offer a complex resolution: a defiant acceptance of the current state, acknowledging that the choices made, however flawed, have led to this point and are now the reality to be lived with.