Lyrics

[Verse 1] Mama was a junkie, sometimes I used to wonder Whether she'd be better off alive or six feet under Late nights go by, no sleep Born into a junkie's world it's so deep Crack pipes, crack vials, cracked up person some days It's bad then other days Much worse, I used to never go to sleep, in fear Tryin' to hide the pain and front like I didn't care The neighborhood knew just what had happened to me At night they said the Devil was rapping to me But on the streets I could feel my mother's heartbeat And every time she gets frightened It quickly repeats, the way the junkie lives And what the junkie gives, hard times and problems And stress for their own kids, no sense in rehabilitation Growin' up in humiliation, the aroma of base makes me choke I could almost die from the smell of the crack smoke Different men, going out, and coming in And in my eyes, I witnessed the first people's sin And I was only three, they thought I couldn't see But in my eyes, mama was a junkie [Hook] A junkie, tryna live a life Such a sacrifice, knowin' wrong from right A junkie, tryna live a life Such a sacrifice, knowin' wrong from right [Verse 2] J-U-N-K-I-E to me Some closed their eyes and tried not to see But you can still smell it, seein' is just as well My mother unconsciously trapped in Hell Now her life's on the line and stuck to the grind And time after time, she's on my mind I'm thinkin', "How could this happen to my mother? Not me bro" But some nigga in my hood is slangin' kilos He's got a spot around the corner from the crib Lord forgive her for all the things she did I'm thinkin', "Where was the police when she was buyin' this?" But I know that police could give a fuck less About another basehead on the street But they'd rather pretend they dont see it When they walk the beat, a black cop ain't good for shit but blackmail And he knows that my mother's out here smokin' llello But black cops are blind they can't see 'Cause in my eyes, mama was a junkie [Hook] A junkie, tryna live a life Such a sacrifice, knowin' wrong from right A junkie, tryna live a life Such a sacrifice, knowin' wrong from right [Verse 3] Mama lived the fast life, pregnant at fourteen Back in those days it wasn't crack, it was heroin Shot it in her veins to try to ease the pain An unplanned pregnancy was made then I came Straight from the womb to witness my mama's doom And in my heart, I know the end's comin' soon Of all this junkie-ism, neighborhood criticism Her mind was gone, I felt she needed an exorcism Speedballin', booze and the fast times Pretty soon my mama lost her whole fuckin' mind ADC, welfare recipient, three children Not enough dividends, few good times Only bad times and worse From speedballin', her motherfuckin' heart burst I wish I could have said, "I love you" before she left Now my mind's forever haunted, with my mama's death I asked myself, "How could this happen to me?" My mother O.D.'d 'cause she was a junkie [Hook] A junkie, tryna live a life Such a sacrifice, knowin' wrong from right A junkie, tryna live a life Such a sacrifice, knowin' wrong from right A junkie, tryna live a life Such a sacrifice, knowin' wrong from right A junkie, tryna live a life Such a sacrifice, knowin' wrong from right