The End Of The Beginning

Lyrics

[Verse] These are the woes of a 20 something year old Single black female addicted to retail I'm single cause I trusted every asshole I ever met And lately I've been fed up with that shit It ain't been working out so well So now I'm soaking in this Starbucks, sipping skinny caramel Iced macchiato, wondering what life would be like if I was a ho If I'da gave it up to everyone who wanted some My louboutin count would be at 101 And rent, I'd never pay that shit again And Angelina did it, and since she hasn't spent a penny since But me, I'm just as stubborn as my mother Never depend on another for my check The hardest working women never sit in some lawn chairs We ain't got time for our hair and our nails, am I fair? I ain't put out a song in a year What if I bear my heart and soul again and nobody cares Blood sweat and tears dissipating in a year, so unfair I hold my breath, more or less, I'm so stressed Maybe I need a catch, cause I already think I'm pretty But I really would do wonders with a brand new pair of titties All the generations kiddies will go crazy up on Viddy Some say I was a sucker while I'm laughing to the biddy, feeling giddy The numbers just went up about a milli They say it's bitter-sweet and might prickly at the victory But victory to me is making money, being free And self express, I never said I was the best, I have no desire to be My ego will be fine, it's never dying When nothing else on Earth is alive it will survive As will you, as will I, as we wish, as we work 7 billion talking heads separate Church and State All I wanna be is great and no one said it would be easy In fact they told me long ago that folks would do me greazy Family and friends, it never ends Cause when you got ends, it all depends "Ayo Elle, where you been?" I don't seem to remember all these people in December When I was sneaking meals inside the college cafeteria My dollars was [?], I barely was surviving My numbers still the same but like they say I guess it's timing They love to say you've changed, it's convenient as dry cleaning They love you even more when you're leaving They show up at your door with empty hands and open arms Telling you they always knew how far you come along I take a puff and pass it like a bone It's been so long the California girl With drinks for thoughts, sleep for food, songs for life All I wanna do is write, so I eat my prayer to kids And say a prayer every night For the ones who need it most, shit I need it too I've been jet-black and blue without you The [?] that I've ever been to see said I'm drowning in the sink Or swim for me now, on a real I don't know who to be now And I don't wanna rebound Can't get with the get down I'm good with picking apples from the ground And running round town with a clown singing "who's sorry now" I thought about it just to make you jealous Act like I'm doing business from an empty office building Instagram flexing like my living was dependent Like "ooh you missed the party, everyone was in attendance" But you, it's all in my imagination You running back to me, the scene I'm constantly replaying It's borderline obsessive, my words were so offensive I'm good at burning bridges, not so good at climbing fences I hope our love will stay alive Like Romeo and Juliet did before they died But unlike them we skip the poison and grow old A couple of rings, a couple million albums sold And after everything we happy I'm 80, full of wrinkles and you still looking at me Like you made the right decision Yeah the story could have been different I guess we'll have to wait and see then Don't mind me, I'm just venting But on the real, finally this is the end of the beginning