Do Not Disturb 18'

Lyrics

Verse: I write these verses with blood from my heart/ It was therapeutic for me it started in school/ Now I'm performing sunset in New York in the dark/ I left the stage a fan hugged me and asked was I cool/ She heard that story bout my aunt/ All the flaws that I flaunt/ All the demons in my temple, and the halls that they haunt/ Rolling backs with my niggas/ Burning back to back, chasing figgas/ Lil niggas thinking, wait till we get bigger/ Overnight duck hunt turned into real triggers/ But you still playing games/ Man hunt turned to man down/ Trapped in that loop, blocks I would stand round/ A pack in my boot, weighing some grams out/ I'm wearing all black/ I hate to stand out, I hate the attention/ I hate when you watching, I hate that you listen/ Was so insecure/ False confidence was never sure/ Either or/ Maybe both/ You wanna talk it out, but I say we don't/ My family scattered, I wish I felt like it mattered/ Was precious we let it shatter, on rumors a bunch of chatter/ Caught 4 felonies, 6 misdemeanors/ Separate case for grand theft auto/ Same year that my Father died/ Remember thinking like am I gon' cry?/ I feel desensitized/ To be honest I'm probably traumatized/ And we ain't even have the hardest lives/ Darryl got shot 8 times, I saw the fear in my mama's eyes/ I feel like shit because I disconnect/ See thats my oldest homie, had a daughter/ I ain't even see her yet/ Ski kids neither, I don't event know they names/ Can't even take a breather, everyday the road change/ Sometimes this path is feeling so lame/ I said I wouldn't change, I'd just evolve/ But is it just semantics?/ Every woman's tired of my antics/ And they don't stack up to Maria so it's hard for me to be romantic/ I don't miss her though, I miss the idea/ What I fear, is the fact that I don't care/ I put money in the place of you/ Emotion wise, I claim to be unavailable/ Thats not ok to do/