The Cardiologist

Lyrics

[Verse 1: Dom McLennon] Zonin' off melatonin Shit got me fucking goin' Thinking of hearts I've molded, then the delicate one I'm now holding Fix the shells that are broken, they say my hands were golden But these gloves are blood-stained I feel like a monster watching them open up, 'til I seal all of these cuts It's a race against time and sometimes I'm not fast enough You win some, you lose some, they say Though the stakes get raised when a life is put in the way Don't know why I choose to play Wanted to be a hero Didn't figure what life is like working at ground zero Mama told me that God has his eye on the sparrow But what about us, the mere mortals? Medicated to a portal of an apathetic shell The surface handles well, but I need a cardiologist so I can feel myself Started with insomnia, now my mind's on the rim Spiraling towards oxy's, opiates, and some Klonopin [Chorus: Kevin Abstract, Dom McLennon] I'm just trying to change my ways, my ways, my ways But it just stays the same like a heartbeat Like a heartbeat, like a heartbeat, like a heartbeat I'm just trying to change my ways, my ways, my ways, my ways But it just stays the same like a heartbeat Llike a heartbeat, like a heartbeat, like a heartbeat, baby Gotta start deciding [Verse 2: Dom McLennon] They say greed is evil, but depression is a modern sin Mind racing, not sure if it's the beginning or end Of my thoughts, going a mile a minute Tryin' to change how I'm living But can't make stable decisions Mind edgin' at the point of tippin' 'Til it's time for work, I gotta be a slate And this apathy and numbness makes me perform great I'm praised for these calculations that I've been forced to make By keeping myself rational inside of a sedated state So around and around we go, the vicious cycle My service is a favor and these people feel entitled A sole responsibility, just to perform Don't know why my heroics turned to contemplations, I'm torn No man can be a god, I don't deserve to play it Looking at these patients, EKG is losing patience There's a party in my head and they're pissing in the basement Emotions I've repressed begin to show their ugly faces It's nails on the chalkboard of my sanity, scraping Up my empathy, maestro of life, creating symphonies Upon the epiphany, the human condition ain't worth conditioning Cause nobody is listening Self prognosis, beyond me A bit of addiction tossed in with DID Sorry to say, just a product of a society Compliantly using our anxiety As a means for addiction, you fit the description Come take the prescription, we promise to fix this But I'm part of the business, so riddle me this What does a man with both hands tied behind his convictions Do to perform surgery? If he does it for others, I hope that shit work for me [Bridge: Kevin Abstract] I say, oh, can you hear me? Can you see me? I say, ooh, can you hear me? Can you see me? Ah, ain't no Ah-ah, ain't no Oh, yeah, ain't no Ain't no [Verse 3: Kevin Abstract] The room is closing in and I can barely breathe The red on the walls will never let me leave The man behind the wall will never let me down And there's been moments I was hoping you would still be 'round I can be a really shitty time for you to pass these out To all your patients with intentions of us passing out on couches I'd rather be at my step daddy's house; the mattress where I lay my head Jamming out to cashing out the classics [Chorus: Kevin Abstract] My ways, my ways, my ways, my ways Like a heartbeat, like a heartbeat Like a heartbeat, oh I'm just trying to change my ways, my ways, my ways But they just stay the same like a heartbeat Like a heartbeat, like a heartbeat, oh [Outro: Kevin Abstract] Ooh, I say like a heartbeat Da-da, mm, da-da da-da, mm Da-da da-da, mm, da-da, mm Da-da da-da, mm, oh Like a heartbeat, like a heartbeat Like a heartbeat