What If I

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Sometimes I wonder Sometimes I wonder, what if I Sometimes I wonder, what if I yelled back What if I had been born and raised in Korea What if I had pursued music full-time Sometimes I wonder Sometimes I wonder What if I were fearless What if I had a time machine Especially if I had received Like, a lot of support as a kid Sometimes I wonder What if I were free from people's expectations Like, how would that change my life And how would that change the world What if I just left it all behind and started over Sometimes I wonder, what if I moved to another country I think a lot about those questions I still wonder that today If I could revisit one of my life choices It would be, uh If I could revisit one of my life choices It would be to give myself more breaks I wouldn't, like, really revisit anything in my past Outside of, like, just, reflecting If I could revisit one of my life choices It would be the days I chose despair Back then, I thought it was the only option Like, I don't really regret anything Going to a high school that my mom wanted me to go to Instead of studying vocal music at LaGuardia Which is a competitive specialized high school I try not to think too much about things past that I can't change I am the person that I am because of the choices that I made And they all compound on one another One thing in life I don't regret is Taking chances And following my passions One thing in life I don't regret though, all this being said, is Taking chances And putting myself out there One thing in life I don't regret One thing in life I don't regret is choosing to stay alive Choosing creativity over assimilation One thing in life I don't regret is Letting go of what others think of me That chance is not guaranteed and When putting myself out there could end in failure Speaking up when I could about things that matter to me Not to be somebody who is gassing themselves up But I think I'm pretty, like Chill, so One thing in life I don't regret One thing in life I don't regret is doing my best And to always try to do the right thing If I could talk to my past self I would tell her to just go for auditions Tell her to trust her gut more If I could talk to my past self, I would Tell me to be myself Tell her that she's smart Tell her to just kind of chill out You know And not be afraid of everything I would tell her to think less, and do more And to study hard and be disciplined in your practice Because that's important I'd tell her to keep it up Your intuition is better than you think it is Honestly, if you feel emotional about something, just Be emotional Be mad One day, I would meet really cool Asian American mentors in my life It doesn't matter what other people think And if I could talk to my past self I would say just Go for it