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Lyrics

[Intro] This is for everybody out there... whoever fucked up their life Or had someone close do it for 'em [Verse 1] My 3-year-old son says he wants to go to mommy's It's heartbreaking, she's been doing dope and roxies I know it's too much for him to understand That she let drugs get the upper hand, fucking up his plans I know he loves her but I don't trust her Enough to leave him alone in a home with his own mother Oh brother, it's bad enough my child support is turning Into powder on the counter she's about to snort Now I'm out in court fighting over custody Luckily, the judge can see it's all about my son for me Well luckily, they agreed, handed me the orders Same court I dropped 12 G's in to see my daughter A lot's happened since she moved away in '05 Her spiteful ass mom, homie believes her own lies Her jealous husband calls my cell like I'ma tell my cousins Out in Yonkers cuz where you live got me really buggin' Detect the sarcasm, I don't even bark at 'em but if I think About the situation then my heart spasms My daughter probably thinks her father doesn't care, 'cuz I wasn't there, and it seems like her brother's taking up her share Plus I'm here with this good girl, she's so great She lies to me saying, "Baby it'll be okay!" There's no way it's okay I spent the whole day stressin' 'cuz my son's sick, and I can't afford to co-pay [Hook x2] This is how my thoughts move and collide to live with the shit I do to survive Moving through all the rumors and lies, I'm just trying to find the truth in disguise [Verse 2] Folks say I should keep the faith, believe in god, but God doesn't answer when I'm praying for a decent job It's even harder watching people make a killin' while I stood by A good guy, forced to play the villian They say the way I'm feelin' actually defines you, plus the way you persevere is why they get behind you Rumor has it Babygrande wants to sign you, that's crazy Chuck's a shady fuck, you've being lied to I was forced to take my Viper deal and re-work it, 'cuz me losing an old friend to business didn't seem worth it From the outside looking in, it seems perfect, when in fact, rap Made my life a three-ring circus Like I said I got a new girl, who leads her life responsibly Her philosophy's that it'll be 'aight Somehow I feel the need to fight, scream and hipe Probably because I think I'm the piece of shit that I treat her like I need advice, call tabs, weave 'em tight, Jesus Christ I hope he calls back before I fall flat And Sean snaps, 'cuz he don't get enough sleep, it seems Attention runs deep and eats at him like lunch meat Leading him to believe the end is complete, and his Heart breaks, and doesn't mean he keeps the tempo up beat It just means that unleash a beast is left to unleash A shootin' spree, 'cuz as you see, it's been a rough week [Hook x2] This is how my thoughts move and collide to live with the shit I do to survive Moving through all the rumors and lies, I'm just trying to find the truth in disguise