selective morality (extended)

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I remember early that year Spiraling into a friendship That I hadn't predicted I wanted to welcome it For a little while, it felt so clear You were somethin' that I looked forward to I wanted to wipe away your tears But I couldn't reach you Your eyes always speared through mine I felt your stare through the back of my head I lied and told you that I was fine I just needed to go to bed I'm just like you I just liked you [Verse 2] All the stupid memories we madе Felt like I'd known you longer But I know I didn't And if I'm bеin' honest I wish I'd knew more about you Is it my fault? Did I not try hard enough? Was it the edge of the cuff? You're so much better than me I think that you should know Don't ever take the worst for free You catch more than you throw I'm just like you Go on and be you [Verse 3] I was kind of a dick Did a lot a shit I regret but I'm glad we're alright though Or at least I hope so I never really know how to read you Whenever you're about to speak I always think I got you figured out Then you go and ride a different cloud I'd always compared myself to you To the point where I hated your guts In all types of ways I'd envy who you'd become (Felt kinda good to get that off my chest, I don't know) [Interlude 1] (Tryna steal my fl—?) (It's gay!) (Ooh, and Asia—) (My hands are so shaky, I look like an old person) [Verse 4] I remember late last year Never fell asleep, got to talk to you a lot I think we have the same thoughts I wanted you to be my friend I pray that this'll never end and I get to be There right by your side Your run of the mill "partners in crime" Your mind's a loaded gun You always know what you want I'll never live up to who you're gonna be [Build] To who you're gonna be You never even needed me You never even needed me You never even needed me [Breakdown] But I needed you I needed you (And it starts with somethin' new) (And it starts with somethin' new) (And it starts with somethin' new) [Interlude 2] Hi Alex, it's Claire! And Shree! Yup, we are sitting in my car right now, um Ope, that person's about to park in the not allowed spot Not good Anyway, um, pick up your phone Please, whore! To replay this message, press o— [Verse 5] Was it a crush? I couldn't even tell you Plainly enough Think I was fallin' for a part of somethin' I'd never felt You were the catalyst, raisin' your Hell in my mind But it never looked like you never gave a shit So I let myself cave in Like I always did [Verse 6] Sometimes I feel like I was barely a friend And it's all my fault I'd hate to be a person you forget in the end But I'm ready for whatever comes next Realized that you were the only one Who never pissed me off Feels like I chase the conflict just to heal a scar [Verse 7] Why can't I just piece it together like you do all the time? It's never been worth it, why do I even try? I feel so insignificant at the end of the night Convincin' myself that it's a feeling that'll go away But it always stays Am I ashamed of who I portray? Can't help feelin' like shit when I'm next to you (I can't wait to never see you again) [Outro] You shouldn't hear this from me You shouldn't hear this from me You shouldn't hear this from me You shouldn't hear this from me You shouldn't hear this from me You shouldn't hear this from me You shouldn't hear this from me You shouldn't hear this from me