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​i. desert SADIE ​so the house was my aunt's house ​she had been traveling in korea ​and they were just doing soooooooooo much better than us ​in every way ​so she stayed there ​but she knew i was going through a tough time ​with my breakup ​so, she offered me her place ​sooooo kind ​i accepted— ​thank you auntie ​and the house was fucking great ​big brass bed! ​comfy leather couch! ​big tv! ​fully stocked kitchen! ​and a hot tub out back ​where i could gaze into the sky ​all night long ​so many stars to behold! ​i smile at them ​and they wink ​with crystalline wet eyes ​and the coyotes howl ​and the moths flitter and flutter ​while the windchimes whisper lullabies ​all night long ​during the day ​the sun screams at the cacti ​colorstorms of dust get in your eyes ​and the mountains in the distance stand like gods ​all of which is to say ​it was all quite stunning ​all of which is to say ​it was a fantastic place ​and all in all ​this was a setting ​that really should have been SADIE, SUSAN & BECKETT ​quite conducive ​to tender heart healing and positive mental health / / / SADIE ​and yet ​for the first time ever ​i was truly and totally ​alone ​there was suddenly ​so ​much ​time ​too much time ​and nothing to fill it So i spent the majority of my time in taos ​building a digital replica of my grandparents' house ​inside one of those cute and obsessive ​life-simulation video games