Niko

Lyrics

[VERSE] I walked in blind Walked in na�ve Couldn't see Wouldn't let me leave Traded so much just to gain your trust What I didn't know? Your trust was luck Had no reason to activate that injured side You had to wait Overwatered and over-sheltered My tree of life was your trauma filter Like cat and mouse, you sat and preyed Staring, watching every move I made Analyzing and deciphering You were finding flaws You were forensic filing [PRE-Chorus] Now I'm breaking, tearing at the seams At the trauma you transferr5d to me God forbid you ever do m5 wrong To abusers, they're the victims all along [Chorus] I've only realized this recently There's not a good reason to be ashamed of me My deprecation and humiliation were just seeds that narcissists have planted in me Anything that I have done wrong I've tried to fix Said "sorry, sorry, sorry" 'til my voice lost pitch I wasted breath and air and sweat and blood and strife and all my mental health to fix your shitty life [VERSE] You got sick of waiting Sick of stalking, preying So you set me up and tried to trap me and it phased me It worked so well, you left me in the dust Thus began the cycle through the mud When your set-up worked and it was done I was left trying to work and word what had begun For you had set me up to fail Acted like I hurt you, fucked up When it was impossible to tell what it was I did 'Cuz apparently "no" is not valid And setting boundaries must've really hurt your feelings Last I checked, I was simply fucking speaking I'm so sorry I can't read your mind It's almost like there's no faults to find [PRE-Chorus] You were breaking, tearing at the seams From the trauma that has no business with me God forbid you're ever in the wrong To abusers, they're the victims all along [Chorus] You need to realize this quickly for there's not a good reason to be ashamed of me Your deprecation and humiliation are just seeds that grew into the problems planted in me Anything that I've done wrong I've tried to fix Said "sorry, sorry, sorry" 'till my voice lost pitch And unlike you, who could barely say a word I tried every day to patch and heal your hurt [BRIDGE] Lies All your words are lies Goodbye In lies there's always the truth [POST-Chorus] Once I saw the game you played The reason for my injured brain I ran away to the light of day to keep me safe from your acid rain [OUTRO] But that was just the start There were many more attempts To slander, rumor, batter, break me, hurt me, hate me Turn my friends against me, crush me, fucking end me You kept going even when I ran I set up walls and locks and gates and wire and weapons Even after our ordeal is said and done You kept attempting, kept conspiring, plotting, hating I told you once and twice and thrice and so much more That I was gone and walked away right through that door But in your tiny sick and twisted fucking mind You needed more than just an end, you needed signs You needed to know that you have fucking broke me You needed the satisfaction of succeeding So I ran away and left you in the dark Let you be Let you eat away at someone else's heart