Backlighting

Lyrics

I exist, I'm alive, or at least i'm kinda breathing And I've got no new day's sheathing For this ugly hollow feeling to disguise And I don't really mind this time Up to now I've been throwing and wasting my entire fucking stupid life So this time I won't go back home at night and my mind The more that I engage in it the more that I am mortified So tell me why am I supposed to avoid A troubled cure for a useless troubled fucking stupid mind? Oh my!, I'm bubbling up inside and I got tired Of waiting for the dawn to bring the sunlight to my night And melt the ice and cure me of this pain that keeps my lungs tight I cry inside and that's fine, so I tear my flesh To draw my soul backlighting Like a praying atheist choking in weight Singing to embrace this light being And take leave of this mundane earthly frame Of absence, same old sadness I better pack up and run away again And switch off the loudness of these visions I still find in fondness And just forget that you were once my best friend In through dusk I hide from lantern lights Love the stars when shooting from your eyes I tear my flesh to draw my soul backlighting I'm a praying atheist choking in weight I sing to embrace this light being I'm just trying to make myself not care