Song Meaning
The narrator traces a shift from passionate engagement to resigned acceptance. Early verses paint a picture of someone deeply invested, feeling intensely and wanting to connect: "I used to care about it all," and "Had some love I wished to give." This was a person with aspirations and emotional availability, someone who felt the weight of relationships and dreams.
This intensity, however, seems to have led to a sense of overwhelm and inevitable failure. The imagery of "buildings grew too tall" and the resigned "You try to stand, you're bound to fall" suggest a world that became too imposing, crushing individual effort. The narrator appears to have concluded that striving is futile, leading to a decision to stop fighting the inevitable decline, symbolized by the sinking boat.
The core of the song lies in the ambiguous return to "normal." The narrator embraces a state of being that is defined by its lack of definition: "Whatever normal was." This isn't a triumphant return to a familiar state, but rather an adoption of a generalized, perhaps even passive, mode of existence. The act of "letting go of what you know" and needing a "suit" if life is "formal" suggests a surrender to external expectations or a simplified, less demanding way of navigating the world.
Ultimately, the lyrics capture a profound weariness. The effectiveness comes from the contrast between the vibrant, yearning past and the muted, uncertain present. The narrator isn't necessarily happy, but has found a way to exist by shedding the burden of strong feelings and specific ambitions, settling into a state of "normal" that feels more like a default setting than a chosen destination.