CONTRADICTIONS

Lyrics

[Verse 1: Taj] Have you ever been a rich nigga? - Nah not me I got just enough to tell myself - God got me Chose to take a leap of faith instead of living on the edge Find comfort knowing God gon come through in the end It keep me humbled Keep me grounded even when I stumble Keep me human knowing when I need help whenever I'm in trouble But I'll confess, want shit to change Want the '88 Benz wood grain, switchin lanes Pick up every tab flying first class on planes Give my family shit they never had Buy my wife her first Chanel bag She think I'm next to be a rich nigga, I believe her Biggest fear is I get rich and feel like I no longer need ya I'm scared I won't recognize my blessings Stop living life within abundance, tighten my grip on all of my possessions Should it come with that The bottom of the fall is that with everything I got, I don't give back To none of y'all Due to my ambitions, I face contradictions Maybe I'm just trippin Lately I been feelin I want everything to change ...But want everything to stay the same, uh Started with a vision but it met conditions God give me the wisdom to make good decisions Cuz I'm welcoming the change Just hope the best of me can still remain [Verse 2: Ras] - Truth I been fucking bitches, dreamin of goddesses I - I fear commitment, I think my problem is I don't wanna lose, don't wanna fail Make it hard to choose, make it hard to tell Who really mines? Is there someone better? Always someone better, I could search forever I may find you never I fear that Pray God hear that, tryna steer clear of that Make it write then write again, spit then write again Music love me, I love music - Where would you fit in? Would you tell me, "Leave", when it's time to go? Or would you tell me, "Stay", knowing what my purpose holds? That's a perfect hold, that's the perfect trap Feeling so in love but yet your love could hold me back Hold you in my arms, as resentment forms And that shit the norm But I can't cope with that So I been fucking bitches, dreamin of goddesses I - I fear commitment, we know my problem is I don't wanna lose, don't wanna fail Make it hard to choose, make it hard to tell My parent's love, that's hard to find It didn't work, now my Father Time My Mother's Nature, that shit in my nature If it never work, I stick to work and I'll be fine Love been on my brain, something to attain I want everything to change and yet stay the same Uh, I want everything to change and yet stay the same [Verse 3: Eric] As I look into the Night Sky, staring at God freckles I wonder who I am - if I'm really him in a vessel Asked him if I'll make it He answered back with a bar There's enough space for everybody be a star Under Murphy's Law - if it can, it'll go wrong I wonder if that's true - if it is, I should be gone Coming from where I'm from, we don't really make it this far So before I'm called, let me get this off I just gotta say Thank You For the times I thought I was worthless Would question if life was worth it I know that nobody's perfect, but damn is this even working? You came and gave me a purpose and taught me to have discernment Let wisdom stand by my side, temperance always guide Myself to my inner child, the place where I feel divine You put me inside a Tribe on a Quest to save many lives Blessed me up with a Bride, so allow me to take this time To simply say Thank You I can't believe you my partner, you really do solve my problems We laugh like we Gina-Martin I have to give you your flowers and always tend to your garden You really should thank my Father I wanna say Thank You While you alive and can hear this song I'm sorry that Mommy gone, I'm sorry I'm far from home I'm hurt that you all alone, promise it won't be long I know you - I know you strong Since the day I was born been teaching me right from wrong Now I'm 3000 miles away and I'm on my own Some people just complain, me I just catch a plane Dang I want everything to change but yet stay the same [Verse 4: Rio] So I pray I never see the day I'll say I used to know her You held me down when I was low before the Coast blowed up Before they put my name in lights before we went up on the price I knew you always treasured my love, even when my pockets was tight I never cared about the finer things, just wanted you That night you had that accident, I almost died too I don't want the world if I'm gon lose what I got I wasn't born with a lot, I hope my family don't change I hope y'all treat me the same I hope my real ones still love me, if I fall off today I hope y'all stil see the kid, from the village say "Hey!" While paparazzi blocking every route, they all know my face Don't want attention just billions of dollars to renovate The slums in every 3rd world country that don't really get named I know the pain, I'm not ashamed It made me who I am today There's not a thing that I would change if I could have this shit my way The only things I would've changed is being broke Losing hope Feeling anxious of failing myself when I can't write a quote Stressing for hours, tryna start with the right vowel and flow The fact my people been broke For as long I can recall The fact I can't see my brother Or hug my grandma anymore, I know heaven ain't far I closed my eyes and see it close Wish I could take all of the pain away my mama endured She was so pure Born into a world that poisoned her heart, I was the cure For young Milena Who wanted more out of life than what a daily novela Shows on TV, but comparing lives don't make it better I know you need me but our situation gon' get better I realize my life won't change if I don't do the same Shit I want everything to change but yet stay the same Yeah I want everything to change but yet stay the same