Outsider (feat. Heartbreaka)

Lyrics

[Verse 1 - Chow Mane] Right by the water where I was born Overcast, lotta downpour Out in the cut like it's Neosporin Car foreign and my family foreign MCM this ain't no Jansport I grew up on North Sanborn But I moved up to San Jo Viet, Laos and the Cambos Chinese and the Mexicans Lil chino used to get it in Felt like I was here to represent But lately I been out my element Shorty told me she don't understand In her head I was a better man Mind slippin' way from me I know I'm so tired, wanna go on home Now I'm hot like Mikе Jones, but everywhеre I go the people cold Couple nights I lost all control, and I could tell its damaging my soul My hands prayin' dearly, tryna see it clearly but I only got one way to go Most days I be all alone Most nights get my mind blown [Hook - Chow Mane] And all my life I been a outsider Now my money amount higher She been in my mind like a house spider Got me paralyzed and my mouth quiet Aye Spendin' too much time all by myself I got stories I can't ever tell Livin' in my head it's like a cell When I die hope ion go to hell I been gettin' faded by myself I got stories I can't ever tell Tryin' to forget just how it felt No one else but me to turn for help [Verse 2 - Heartbreaka] Lately I been talkin to myself They don't really know how I feel My brother just got locked up they ain't give him bail All them fuckin' losses send 'em thru the mail I don't think you want these fuckin' problems is you stupid now I was on that X for 3 days like what you doin now Only place I go is up, I know where I'm headed now Married to the game consider this my fuckin' wedding vows So I can be your only one, I can be there when you want You might miss me when I'm gone, feel like I been on the run Different city every night, pray to god gon' steer me right While I live this Bad Life now while I get this bag right She don't really know what I been through Trophies on my neck and my wrist too Demons I could see 'em in my rearview All these haters talkin' I can't hear you [Hook - Chow Mane] And all my life I been a outsider Now my money amount higher She been in my mind like a house spider Got me paralyzed and my mouth quiet Aye Spendin' too much time all by myself I got stories I can't ever tell Livin' in my head it's like a cell When I die hope ion go to hell I been gettin' faded by myself I got stories I can't ever tell Tryin' to forget just how it felt No one else but me to turn for help