Not Ok

Lyrics

[Chorus] It's from my heart that I sing to y'all I feel like a butterfly trapped in a killing jar Knowing my death awaits me Still my success escapes me Have I offended God, for where my writing takes I am Not OK, I am Not OK I am Not OK, I am Not OK I am Not OK, I am Not OK I am Not OK, I am Not OK [Verse 1] As I follow life's twists and turns My Mystic words, seem to affect the people around me. They say, I think disturbed I think I'm just alert. I got your question Scourge Before I trust and heard, I leave y'all in the dust and dirt This is not a Christian verse, my pistol is quick to burst When this kid was birthed, they should have choked my mama, choked the nurse Converse to put a hatchet in the back of this bastard A blaster with a ratchet and buried the casket beneath an Alaskan church My passion serves as a catalyst, like, I'm back in Jers Holding up the Earth like I'm Atlas, with [?] Never plastic and blurred, [?] And in fact, I have learned that it's back to my turn if I'm smart and determined And I apologize to anyone that I've left behind On this rise to power or been murdered in one of my rhymes I'm always asked how my skill level's so accurate And I can make a million if I could just wrap it and package it To artists that try their hardest but still, sadly inadequate I probably go to Hell for loving the rhyme so passionate [Chorus] It's from my heart that I sing to y'all I feel like a butterfly trapped in a killing jar Knowing my death awaits me Still my success escapes me Have I offended God, for where my writing takes I am Not OK, I am Not OK I am Not OK, I am Not OK I am Not OK, I am Not OK I am Not OK, I am Not OK [Verse 2] I felt like I was drowning on land if that is possible Shooting random in the air, trying to make Heaven a hospital Demons and spectres of light surround me like a whirlpool Devouring my prayers to the sky like, if it was their full I tried to be careful with. All I did was pop pills And use my magic to seduce women like David Copperfield After I cop of feel, then I just set them free Knowing damn well, half of their spirit was still left for me. Mental telepathy and levitation, I was granted My sanity bleeding red like the seed of a pomegranate I need time so I can readjust And try to find out who I really was Complete insomnia, I cannot rest 36 sleeping pills, I'm more than buzzed A razor placed across my wrist to cut I'm on the bathroom floor in a mixture of vomit and blood And I tried to get up, I'm feeling hazy, I'm layin' in a tub I'm shaking and hurt. It's crazy Except for my babies, there was nothing in life that I loved They found me on the rug, saved before I slipped away When this happens again, do not resuscitate [Chorus] It's from my heart that I sing to y'all I feel like a butterfly trapped in a killing jar Knowing my death awaits me Still my success escapes me Have I offended God, for where my writing takes I am Not OK, I am Not OK I am Not OK, I am Not OK I am Not OK, I am Not OK I am Not OK, I am Not OK