are you not proud of me?

Lyrics

[Spoken Interlude: chicagoland & still-life starlet] It's over What do you mean? All the purpose I had, it's-it's gone There's nothing I can think of, no matter how hard I try Hey, hey No, I get it You're gonna try to cheer me up but I'm just gonna accept it But that's not the right thing to do, I— You what? You know it gets better? I've been told that countless times in the last five months And I know it supposedly does But my goals are so uncertain and out of reach that I just can't believe it I can't believe in anything Let me guess, it just gets fucked up? Yes And I don't know how to break the pattern without looking stupid I want to change, but— You're afraid of change Change isn't easy, and no one really wants it They just think they need it 'cause they realize it's what's best for them A-and if you get up and make the realization too What toll does it take on you? If the change isn't obtainable right now What's the point? Exactly And if you have no one behind you, it feels like it falls short Even if people notice, they don't wanna say anything As to not hurt your feelings, or whatever But, like, I need reassurance that this is the right path Right, are you not proud of me? It's harder to accept what you think than to accept what others say I am proud of you Thanks, chicago, I— No, I don't wanna hear it Huh? You deserve the words I gave to you So take them and run [Outro: filt] I know that's right (f-f-f-filt was on the beat)