Feelings

Lyrics

[Spoken Word] Feelings I found myself in a place of sorrow I found myself in a place of grief And at first, I didn't have language for it All I know was something was off And I couldn't trace it back to any misstep I took I couldn't trace it back to, anything that I've done That was like a consequence I was just, my emotions were just I had feelings, I was feeling a lot Whether it was pandemic stuff Something I never even knew could happen Or whether it was relational stuff that was just not working out Friendships not ending, friendships not ending well It was just my own personal brokenness Turmoil, inner, internal battle I just had feelings, still have feelings And what I realized is that There is a place in feelings where you can honor the Lord Where I can have these feelings And He's not in heaven Like hey, get out of that Get out of those feelings, don't feel that He's not rushing me to get to a place that I'm not But He's, He's not just in heaven but He's sitting with me And in, in my tears, in my fear, in my confusion, in my frustration, in my questions He's siting here, present with me And I've realized and I've learnt something about Him, in my feelings That I may not have learned in this period per se I learned something about Him Being the God of my emotions The One who created me That I may not have learned had I not been in this place I've learned how to suffer with Him I think a lot of times before in my life I've Slipped into depression easier And slipped into a worldly grief easier Because I've tried to suffer without Him But I've learned how to suffer with Him after this process I haven't been able to pray like I used to I've learned how to suffer with Him A fellowship, join Him in the fellowship of His suffering And that's what this album is, hat's what these songs are My process of lament My process of suffering with Him Being able to feel my feelings, but not lean on them Father, I thank You for allowing me to have feelings