Dixie

Lyrics

[Chorus] You know that I am sorry, Momma I never meant to hurt you I never meant to make you cry Only wanna see you smile You know that I am sorry, Momma I never meant to hurt you I never meant to make you cry Only wanna see you smile (Anonymass) [Verse 1] Yeah, growin' up, wasn't a kid they believed would prosper Back when Dad was gettin' 'scripts from a crooked doctor Back when I was readin' 'scripts from the book of vodka I used to keep a half a zip in my student locker Older sis was expelled, went to school at Excel With all the other bad kids, made it hard to excel I was fifteen when Ben taught me how to inhale Stopped prayin' then 'cause I was used to livin' in hell Burnt like sage, but I wasn't on the Indian Trail Before we ever went to jail, was gettin' plenty of bales Back before your favorite rapper albums' lyrics were stale I kept my clientele small out of fear they would tell I used to run with the drug dealers, felt like they was big brothers After Pops died, I had to eat, so I skipped supper Bumper car love, between us, there's a big buffer Runnin' from your own pain just made your kids suffer Leavin' my crib, went on a comma chase Never justified the tears put on my Momma face I swear she cried for a year straight Tryna hold this family together, but my hands were like clear tape Easy to break, straight face 'cause a smile wasn't easy to fake And mistakes were a dime a dozen, easy to make But this pill bottle felt like concrete, it wasn't easy to shake [Chorus] Sorry, Momma I never meant to hurt you I never meant to make you cry Only wanna see you smile You know that I am sorry, Momma I never meant to hurt you I never meant to make you cry Only wanna see you smile [Verse 2] I saw the look of fear was overtakin' my Moms When I signed to Birdman, the studio full of dons And drugs piled next to the interface intercom Second guessin' what type of person I would become She had a skepticism that wasn't easily won From growin' up in a trailer and gettin' beat like a drum Alcoholic parents abusin' her like it's fun They died never even acknowledgin' what they'd done And then she met my Pops, her fate was already spun He moved her up out the trailer and that was where they begun Changed her life, gave her a daughter, then had a son Vowed to keep her safe, she had nowhere she could run And then one day, after the smoke had filled up his lungs He lost half his hand at work in an accident Got introduced to the Oxycontin to numb Then started gettin' high with my sister, my Mom was done Realizin' that he had lost it all, he was stunned The heaviness of his sins was weighin' on him a ton 4/20, I left to school to roll me a blunt He went upstairs, said his goodbye with a smokin' gun See me and drugs got such a painful way we entangle We try to dance 'round with the devil and twist our ankles I try to take a look at my life from different angles But seem like everybody I love leave me for angels For makin' music and havin' fans, I'm more than thankful I toured around the country, got reasons I should be grateful But every time I did drugs with 'em, I felt shameful Knowin' this the reason my Momma suffer Losin' everybody that she love to downers and uppers Never strong enough to kick it for her, I gotta be tougher Vowed to never take you through the rain or ever end up the same Before I die, you gonna be proud of me, Mother, I love you [Chorus] Sorry, Momma I never meant to hurt you I never meant to make you cry Only wanna see you smile You know that I am sorry, Momma I never meant to hurt you I never meant to make you cry Only wanna see you smile You know that I am sorry, Momma I never meant to hurt you I never meant to make you cry Only wanna see you smile