Serenade My Life

Lyrics

[Intro] Yeah, uh Uh, It's Ca$his Serenade My Life [Verse 1] Focusing on opening emotions that I hold within Surrounded by my inner demons thinking I should roll with them I don't wanna go to hell, I don't wanna go to jail But I wanna kill a man maybe I should kill myself I've been sittin' contemplating suicidal situations Now I'm placed in that position to revive the whole nation And I'm spottin' niggas hating, I'm just watchin', being patient Praying for my own existence, some say I'm a mental patient Drugs are taking over me, sorrow is controlling me Follow my blind heart tomorrow on the coldest streets I've been cryin' for a week, will is weak, can I speak Without somebody judging me? Pushin' me and shovin' me Mama if you love me you will really let me go But I live for a cause that I don't really know Am I wrong if I cry? But I can't cause in time For the truth in my life I will be crucified [Chorus] I'm sitting back pacing (Patient) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life And I can't escape it (Escape it) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life I'm sitting back pacing (Patient) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life And I can't escape it (Escape it) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life [Verse 2] Conversating with my brother's spirit, hear him saying "Strangers in the dark lurking, you just gotta feel 'em waiting" I ain't eating, I ain't sleeping, closer to when I ain't breathing Death is running over me, my conscious keep on showing me Ever since my early teens knew this was my destiny World gotta feel my pain, I'm no longer questioning When? Where? Or how? I will, happen for when I get killed Never take my voice away, through record sales I will live View me as the realest nigga, poppin' pills, drinkin' liquor Sucked into the pressure makes me turn to my aggression Got a lot a homies dead, buried all in my head Cry inside every time I ever stop to read my hands How could I fear a man? I've never been near a man All of y'all fraudulent, you don't like it? Kill me then How could I fear a man? I've never been near a man All of y'all fraudulent, you don't like it? Kill me then [Chorus] I'm sitting back pacing (Patient) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life And I can't escape it (Escape it) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life I'm sitting back pacing (Patient) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life And I can't escape it (Escape it) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life [Verse 3] Sunk into a sea of self-misery being dealt My only fear is lyrically me not being felt I'm much harder, much smarter, more true, fuck you No matter what the conversation this is what it comes to Imagine staring at your friends feeling they don't love you You ride 'till the end but they feel they above you I got a chosen few, name my homies in a song Defy all odds, more for me when I'm gone I try to be a better man, baby if you understand My love for you is true but I ain't really love myself Seem nobody wanna help, better off to end this way Talking to my only friends: Weed, thieves, Hennessy Came from a broken home, smoke 'till the dope is gone Listen to the words homie, this ain't really just a song Came from a broken home, smoke 'till the dope is gone Listen to the words homie, this ain't really just a song [Chorus] I'm sitting back pacing (Patient) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life And I can't escape it (Escape it) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life I'm sitting back pacing (Patient) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life And I can't escape it (Escape it) I'm ready and waitin' (Waitin') For my homicide, Serenade My Life [Outro] Serenade My Life, Ca$his This is real shit Serenade My Life I ain't scared, I ain't running I'm waitin', come gunning nigga Live as a man, die as a man