Lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm not happy with myself these days I took the best parts of the script and I made them all cliché And this red bandana's surely gonna fade Even though its the only thing the fire didn't take [Chorus] Everybody says you'll grow a lot from this experience Maybe become zen after a while, become a president Blessings get disguised sometimes but all I know Is I finally know the difference between going back and going home [Verse 2] There's a lady on my block that has a kid As he swims in the above ground pool, she seals up the lid And he thinks it's kind of normal that she hides Up the cuts and all the bruises, she says it's warpaint for the eyes [Chorus] She tells her son she did the best she could as she buries dad Maybe he'll grow up to be a man unlike his father did As I leave the driveway for the northern snow They finally know the difference between going back and going home [Bridge] Cut to a life being born in '69 Middle-class suburbs, everything's fine Fondue parties, my mom and my dads Drinks being drunk, and fights being had I lost my virginity to a girl in my band She was 4 years older, she made me a man So addicted to sex every chance that I got With whoever I wanted, until I got caught So I took my penicillin, and I took my band To a town made of glitter-girls and cocaine friends Got handed the dream by the age of 18 Saw more than most people that I know had ever seen Played every bar, drank till black and blue Did the morning show bullshit and went to China too Where they left us to die without a ticket to flee Inciting a riot, we were only 23 Packed it up, started over just as fast as we can Selling tapes, making merch in the back of a van Living hand-to-mouth for the next 5 years Took up drinking wine, gave up drinking beer Signed another big deal with a devil in a dress A one-hit-wonder I think described it best Decided to burn out than to fade a way Went back to the van the very next day Built it up, made a living without any help Made amazing friends, if I say so myself If living like this at 38 is a bore Then come on, God, please give me 38 more [Chorus] Everybody knows I've seen a lot, yeah I'm experienced Makes you feel so old after a while, just like our president Every time I come back in this town I know I finally know the difference between going back and going home