Trauma

Lyrics

[Intro: [?]] Psychological trauma can be defined as a negative event So overwhelming that we cannot properly understand Process and move on from it, but, and this is the devilish aspect of it Nor can we properly remember it or reflect upon its nature and its effects on us It is launched within in us, but remains hidden from us Making its presence known only by symptoms and pains Altering our sense of reality without alerting us to its devilish, subterranean operations [Verse 1: Bumps INF] Uh, still I'm dealing with the trauma, baby Uh, I'm a product of a mom that raised me Uh, where every substance was abused And despite stuff that they was using I still felt love, oh, the confusion (Confusion) Here's all my soul, trying to picture it, listening close You would get that it's not even sensitive It's either missing or rigid and cold Whoa, I remember nights where I had to stay locked in my room I can hear screaming and all I was thinking "Man, if you kill my momma, I'm doomed" (Doomed) Uh, not even aware that I'm barely nine and felt paralyzed So terrified, got me too scared to hide, so I sit there and cry It's there, my minds gripped by fear and unaware if they're alive And if she's not, then where would I live in event that my parent died? Uh, off with a child that he shouldn't even have Crazy to think, but most of my life I thought my childhood wasn't even bad Uh, that was normal to me, sure way before that the Lord intervened But the horrible things I was forced into seeing to apportionately had to warp how I think Uh, unsure they'd agree that they most definitely distorted some things The lingering affects and the season that I'm stressed Be the reasons that a storm were to pour me a drink Unfortunately, we at war with the things that are sort of unseen Pause, there is more to it, but it's too short to get what he reports in the form of a scheme Bumpy [Interlude: [?]] Unsurprisingly, a lot of psychological trauma happens in childhood Children are especially vulnerable to being traumatized Because they are congenitally unable to understand themselves Or the world very well [Verse 2: Fern] All I feel is trauma, uh, all I see is trauma, ooh Everybody going through it at the same time drama Huh, at the same time drama (Sheesh) Trying to stay away from the prison, your honor I got a few wrongs, I'm trying to make right (Right) I feel hold down, I'm trying to take flight (Ugh) I'm a break free over trying to break night, at the same time got to make mine (Got a make mine, got a make mine) I can entertain a thought without accepting it at all (At all, at all) It's the pledge that we made when we promised the ball (When we promised the ball, when we promised the ball) Never once did we think that we'd ever would fall (That we'd ever would fall, that we'd ever would fall) The difference is that I never talk, but I made you some calls Oh, soar a ship over everything, uh, that friendship broke when the Feds came You told me things would be different, but I knew better They turned out exact same Uh, life choices turned permanent (They do) Opportunity seldom since (Eeh) I just knew if I can made it through all that nonsense, I could have peace again Too many losses, increase the wins Rock bottom felt like Disney World (Remember), on the day when you said, "Not me again!" (Uhh) Had to ventilate and look up, breath again Eyes clearing, you can see the win transparent, you can see it's Him I can finally be me when all my secrets no longer deep within Fernie (Fernie, Fernie) [Outro: [?]] The leading symptom of having been traumatized is fear Traumatized people are above anything else, scared They're scared of getting close to others, of being abandoned Of being humiliated, or disgraced, or falling ill Probably of sex, of travelling, of their bodies, of parties Of key bits of their minds, and in the broad sense, of the world (Of the world, of the world)