Lyrics

[Verse 1 - Bumps Inf] It always starts oh so innocent Growth so slow that you won't show discipline But watch how it rocks you to sleep Might not even blink, but like most folks listenin' Don't know this is when What you thought was a shoulder rub really was a choke hold slippin' in Oh, no, I'll never do this again But I'm in a predicament that I ain't got no business in Every bad decision that I've made literally pushes me another inch or two away Of the version of myself I've envisioned in my brain Free to go, but I'm livin' like a prisoner in chains Addictions are the same, only when it comes to pain Because I hit it, but it never did get rid of anything I know it sounds ridiculous to say, but I need you God if it's gonna change [Chorus - Evan Ford] I put my trust in you - blind You lеt me down every timе And I swear I hate that I love you Yeah, I hate that I love you I nearly ended my life You put those thoughts in my mind And I swear I hate that I love you Yeah, I hate that I love you [Verse 2 - Bumps Inf] The first lie that usually is told Or the one that suddenly gets rooted in your soul Is like this false confidence you get when you old I refer to it as the illusion of control Like "I can quit this any time that I want" Knowin' good and darn well that's an obvious front You lyin' for what? Why would you deny that you stuck? After all them times you've already tried to get up But fell right back down every time on your butt Man I'm startin' to think that you like when it's rough Life, when it's tough, it's easy justifying this stuff A sly little way to give your addict mind what it wants But how many times in a month can I go to God and ask to get me out of this rut? His responses have been silence, so if I'm bein' honest I'm just holdin' on, tryin' not to give up [Chorus - Evan Ford] I put my trust in you - blind You let me down every time And I swear I hate that I love you Yeah, I hate that I love you I nearly ended my life You put those thoughts in my mind And I swear I hate that I love you Yeah, I hate that I love you