Despero

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Battlin' these demons that grew A lot bigger from the seize that I threw, huh I guess you could see it as proof that in due season Things that we do they reap with some fruit, huh You can't separate a tree from its root Well at least did not expect that when it spring it the bloom, nah I know I should leave it to you, but that's so easy to say and not so easy to do, huh Deep waters I'm completely consumed Now for me to improve, mountains need to be moved Man I think that I'm doomed, especially if it's true That we becomе the thing that we repеatedly do Guess that makes me just one giant mistake (A big mistake) That's probably why most nights I'm awake (I can't sleep) I try to escape from the guy that I hate With the smile on my face, I won't deny that it's fake (Woah!) I'm desperate but it feels like I'm in way too deep I've been trying but of late it seems I may just sink (Oh!) I'm feeling tired and my legs are weak (Oh!) And just 'cause I got eyes don't mean that they can see (Can you hear me?) I've been crying every day this week (Every day this week) Shoot, I feel like dying just to gain some peace (Some peace) I'm no longer trying, I embrace defeat (I embrace it) So I put that iron in my brain it's squeak [Verse 2] Mm, and much to my surprise My request for death, must have been denied I'm awakened by the faces of loved ones by my side Staring at me like, "You know you lucky you're alive" All the demons I was running from was mine, and I would have pushed them all on the others if I died But I could tell I crushed them It was something in they eyes that just said Dad, were we not enough for you to try? You would leave us like this? (Would you?) Is it that bad? (Huh?) Do you even like us? You couldn't ask for help? (What?) Wouldn't have seen a psychic? I mean this shrink is hard to think with this machine and why is it, keep beeping But you know what I mean, come on dad we can fight this I'm just a teenager, it's killing me to see you like this My mother's three and asking me if it was something I did Then what's it mean, is daddy leaving us, are we invited? I'm so confused, what are these devices? That he's hooked up to, hey mom, why's he breathing like this? Should I call the nurse, why does he seem so lifeless? Can anybody hear me? Dad look at me, I'm frightened Stupid machine again, why is it seeming like it Beeping is getting faster, doesn't that mean he's dying? Somebody go get the doctor! Dad, look at me, keep fighting! Don't you quit on me just, dad Dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad Dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad