Letter to Myself

Lyrics

[Verse 1: Bukshot] I wrote a letter to myself just the other day So much on my mind and didn't have a lot to say The sun had a day off and the skies were gray And didn't feel like everything was gonna be okay The pressures from this world are finally starting to get to me I've lost so damn much, forgot the taste of victory The cold wind blows so hard I swear it's bending me I'm at the point I think that everyone's my enemy My body's young but my soul feels like it's crumbling My mind is numb and I can feel my anger rumbling I closed my eyes to thinking all my thoughts are tumbling The path is narrow, I can't stop mysеlf from stumbling I cry for God for help but don't know if he's listening Causе lately he's been calling me and I've been dissing him The music's playing in my head just like a prison hymn My life is in a shroud of darkness and it's dwindling [Chorus: Bukshot] I wrote a letter to myself just the other day So much on my mind but didn't have a lot to say Directions in my head are broke I think I lost my way Death is calling me but honestly I wanna stay I wrote a letter I wrote a letter I wrote a letter it's the saddest one ever I wrote a letter I wrote a letter I wrote a letter but don't feel I'm any better [Verse 2: Bukshot] I wrote a letter to myself just the other day The game clock is ticking trying to find the will to play My grip is slipping while my dreams steady fade away Somebody save me as I hit my knees and start to pray My kids are growing up and yeah I know they love their dad (dad dad dad dad dad) I see 'em getting older, honestly it makes me sad Cause life is changing on, I missed the days we used to have All the time we used to spend together in the past Never could imagine life without my little boys Thinking 'bout the days when they would laugh and play with toys Days are getting darker watching happiness destroyed Trying to fight depression back and let me find some joy Before I know it, they'll be grown and moved out the house And have me sleeping on the couch with the down and outs With my face in my hands all drowned in doubts Contemplating all these stupid thoughts and round-a-bouts [Chorus: Bukshot] I wrote a letter to myself just the other day So much on my mind but didn't have a lot to say Directions in my head are broke I think I lost my way Death is calling me but honestly I wanna stay I wrote a letter I wrote a letter I wrote a letter it's the saddest one ever I wrote a letter I wrote a letter I wrote a letter but don't feel I'm any better [Verse 3: Bukshot] I wrote a letter to myself just the other day The record's skipping in my head but I just let it play Nothing's making sense at all, don't know what to say Trying to keep it all together 'fore I break away I'm in a tunnel, look around I see no light there Wide awake but all around me it's a nightmare Searching for a ray of light then I just might care Drown my misery with liquor and some night air Hard to swallow that I'm still alive to write this song Hit the bottle trying to figure out my right from wrong Hands are swinging but my head tells me the fight is gone Death is taking numbers, said the wait ain't quite that long Here I am face-to-face with my inner-self Too much pride to break down and try to cry for help Guess I'm stuck with this hand of cards that I was dealt I wrote this letter to myself to tell ya how I felt [Chorus: Bukshot] I wrote a letter to myself just the other day So much on my mind but didn't have a lot to say Directions in my head are broke I think I lost my way Death is calling me but honestly I wanna stay I wrote a letter I wrote a letter I wrote a letter it's the saddest one ever I wrote a letter I wrote a letter I wrote a letter but don't feel I'm any better