Deserted (Black Winter Mix)

Lyrics

[Verse 1: Bukshot] Look around, my head so heavy, death lurkin, I'm not ready Ain't workin', stomach's empty, pain hurtin', machete Wanna die right now but I can't let my kids down and be some failure Got the world on my shoulders, found out God's mad at me, let me tell ya He was talkin', wasn't listenin', do that often, now there's tension Fucked up but that's on me, dropped the bail and failed the mission Now I'm in this forest stranded, lost my compass, feelin' panic These demons closin' in, tryin' to get away as I'm turnin' manic My dreams, what happened? Nothin' but nightmares, voices laughin' It seems I've been abandoned, memories stolen by these phantoms Lookin' back now, was it worth it? Bad choices, now my verdict Can't ignore it 'cause I heard it, lost it all, now I'm deserted [Chorus: Str8jaket] When the day ends and I close my eyes I keep prayin' for a beautiful life So tell me why have I been forsaken? (Why have I been forsaken?) Lord knows I've tried so I question why I'm deserted, deserted (deserted), feel deserted (feel deserted) Lord I know I don't deserve it (don't deserve it), deserted (deserted), feel deserted (feel deserted) Everyday I try to live a beautiful life so it's worth it [Verse 2: Bukshot] I feel my kids in my visions but I can't touch 'em, see 'em, hug 'em There's something between us, I reach out but I feel nothin' There's no time left to do what I must, to turn back, right my wrongs Am I dead yet? Can't feel shit as I sit here to write these songs I sit back, think about the days when everything was cool, can't forget that When I said I loved you I meant that, every single word, I'll die tryin' to get back I'm lost right now and I'm on the ropes, swingin', fightin' Blind from uppercuts and punches, close to dying, I'm so frightened Has it come to this? My friend, my darkness, my abyss But it seems I reach every time and wish tryin' to hold onto memories I'm remiss The sun is gone, ain't risin', no moon, the stars ain't shinin' Just blackness, deserted, the thought of life declinin' [Chorus: Str8jaket] When the day ends and I close my eyes I keep prayin' for a beautiful life So tell me why have I been possessed? (Why have I been possessed?) Lord knows I've tried so I question why I'm deserted, deserted (deserted), feel deserted (feel deserted) Lord I know I don't deserve it (don't deserve it), deserted (deserted), feel deserted (feel deserted) Everyday I try to live a beautiful life so it's worth it