Always New Depths (Demo)

Song Meaning

The lyrics paint a stark picture of disillusionment and a loss of innocence, beginning with a sense of overwhelming despair. The opening lines, "All the clouds are black, mother is cried out," immediately establish a somber, almost apocalyptic mood. This feeling is compounded by a confessed lack of memory regarding how a fall was broken, suggesting a detachment from past support or a significant gap in personal history. The phrase "Internationally bastardised" hints at a feeling of being corrupted or fundamentally altered by external forces, leading to a state of being "tongue-tied" and unable to articulate one's true feelings or identity. The central tension arises from the conflict between a desire for something lost and the harsh reality of the present. The chorus, "Summertime has come and gone / All used up with wishful thinking," captures a profound sense of missed opportunity and the futility of longing for a better past. This leads to a resigned "cynical" outlook, underscored by the blunt assertion that "In this world, there are no second chances." The narrator seems to grapple with a sense of responsibility or complicity, admitting, "The truth is I'm not sorry," yet also acknowledging that the situation "It's bigger than the both of us." One of the most striking aspects of the writing is the raw, almost self-destructive plea in the third chorus: "I will tear myself apart / If you promise to paint me / As a work of art." This suggests a desperate need for validation or transformation, even if it comes at the cost of immense personal pain. The repetition of "As a work of art" transforms the plea into an obsessive mantra, highlighting a desire to be seen and preserved, perhaps as a way to make sense of the suffering. The outro's insistent repetition of "Always new depths" acts as a final, haunting refrain, implying a continuous descent into emotional complexity or pain, with no apparent end in sight.