Raped At 15

Lyrics

[Intro] I'm growin' up I'm throwin' up I'm growin' up I'm growin' up I'm throwin' up I'm growin' up [Verse 1] My eyes shut. All I see is him Perfect white teeth, innocent grin College kid, he's all mine Told him I'm a senior, he believed my lie Now we're chillin' with his friends, I'm in the back seat, ridin' Smoked a cigarette so I cough, but I hide it Dude sittin' up front drinkin' while he drivin' I'm so messed up that I don't really mind We drink and we laugh, I skip another class Full speed drivin', headed down the wrong fuckin' path I don't know how it happens. It all happens so fast Went from fograt baby to big kid status It'll never last, street lights now on So I know it's getting late, but I'm not goin' home We end up at a party and I'm feelin' pretty drunk 'Cause he pulls me in a room, I hear the door click shut Now he's rippin' off my panties, I can feel his cold hands All his weight on my body, it's the weight of a man Try to tell him that I can't, but he doesn't seem to care Fear the liquor in my stomach and I throw up everywhere Got some on my chin, got some on my shirt Try to push inside, it really fuckin' hurts My eyes flash out, my eyes flash in Got my vision fucked up, can't see nothing My head it spins, I feel so sick My virginity gone [?] Pulls out his dick, see it's all bloody Got a smile on his face like it's somehow funny [Chorus] My first time, it was a crime, I (I'm growin' up) Watch my sanity goin' bye-bye (I'm throwin' up) No matter how hard I try, I can't forget I was Raped at 15, lost my virginity Lost my mind my first time, I (I'm growin' up) Will not cry no more 'cause I (I'm throwin' up) Cannot hide, it's inside, I was Raped at 15, lost my virginity [Post-Chorus] Raped at 15, lost my virginity Raped at 15, lost my virginity Raped at 15, lost my virginity Raped at 15, ytinigriv ym tsol [Verse 2] Thought he might leave, but he only cleaned his dick off Picked his pants up off the floor, retrieved his camera for a picture He's done this shit before, but I was fooled by his demeanor He came towards me for some seconds, this time he was so much meaner Held me down by my necklace, wrapped tightly around his palm And with his other hand, he cut my mouth, from screaming help, stop I lost (I lost) all hope (All hope), already in pain I laid back and took it all, trying not to play his game Show no fear, cry no tears No givin' up, bitch, don't you dare Legs ache in pain, cum sticks to my hair When it rains it pours, could it be any clearer As he moves, he's talkin', loves that I'm a virgin Said I was his first one, first one, first one That's when the thirst comes, intensified I puked once more, so he flipped me on my side It only took a second for him to decide He'd like to take me from behind I pleaded no, I screamed and cried Little-girl style in a candy aisle He fucked me, with no consent Left me covered in his semen in an unknown bed But I'm lucky that when he left I was still alive and not raped to death [Chorus] My first time, it was a crime, I (I'm growin' up) Watch my sanity goin' bye-bye (I'm throwin' up) No matter how hard I try, I can't forget I was Raped at 15 lost my virginity Lost my mind my first time, I (I'm growin' up) Will not cry no more 'cause I (I'm throwin' up) Cannot hide, it's inside, I was Raped at 15, lost my virginity [Outro] "There's no way I can escape it" (I'm growin' up) "There's no way for me to wash it off" (I'm throwin' up) "For the rest of my life, I'll have always been" Raped at 15, lost my virginity "But I won't let it change me" (I'm growin' up) "There's no reason to look back. I'll always look forward" (I'm throwin' up) "And keep moving ahead, 'cause what's behind me is" Raped at 15, lost my virginity Raped at 15, lost my virginity Raped at 15, lost my virginity Raped at 15, lost my virginity [Skit] "Ew, you know that fucking girl, that dirty fucking bitch? Everyone calls her Bulimic Becky? I wouldn't fucking spit on her if she was on fire, like, seriously? She keeps staring at Tommy, like all fucking day? I swear to God, I wanna cut her fucking throat. I am gonna have somebody kick her ass, okay? I am dead fucking serious. I hate that bitch"