A Memoir to Myself

Lyrics

[Verse] I'm like the veins pumping your blood I been working too much Shit, I ain't even watchin' yo' motions You been wildin' out and I been focused I think that girl is a gun Reload the clip and she shoot at the sun Oh, you think that's yo' bitch but she do that for fun She just want what she want, she don't care who she love I'm a dog, you a dog, baby let's start a kennel Said I wanted some time, what is that on your mental? How you pop up in my life and go like a pimple? I just pour up the drink, think 'bout all my decisions Know some times it get lonely but that's 'cause I'm winning And my brodie just died, that's the end of the sentence To bе honest, I don't want this shit but I'm blending What the fuck do you want? I'm just tryna rеplenish Know some niggas that eat out ya heart All my diamonds be bright but I came from the dark Think I'm new to the game, you can't tear us apart And I look just like money, can't tell us apart I been givin' this shit all my back from the start Damn, I lost all that shit, I had fifty-K large I got smoke through my face, it was all a façade Oh, that's just from the wood that I dropped in the car What a wonderful feeling 'cause bitch, I'm a star That bitch blunt full of J, man, I think she Solange Keep on playing them games 'til I rip out the cards I need a Barbie like Nicki Minaj She not a fiend, she just fuck who she want Checking the clock, think I ran out of time They know big GUCCI gon' blow like a mine They actin' crazy, they think I'm a liar Shit, I was lost and nobody to find Nigga, this real life, no strips or lines Boy, get off my dick, watchin' me online Checking on you, hope everything's alright 'Cause death is the last thing I need in my life All my niggas dyin' on me I think the Reaper watching me I don't know what to believe Thought you belonged to me If I sent you a flight, would you come to me? No sweat bae, I'm just wondering I been goin' up and now these niggas under me Niggas hatin' but, shit, it's love with me Swear the shit they sellin' is all cheap I need a thick bitch to dissolve me With the magic, told her, "Bi'h, call me" By 10, she was in the lobby I won't go, I dare a nigga stop me He gon' be another body Man, I'm sick of niggas tryna try me Took a nigga, whack his mommy I been on grind, on go for it You ain't on shit, can't show for it Swear these lil' niggas ain't makin' like no noise Real bad news come through, kill yo' boy I been working in the paint I been sinning, bitch, I ain't a saint Niggas hatin' 'cause they can't Niggas hatin' 'cause they ain't I just walked in like I robbed the bank So much blue hundreds like I paint I might wash 'em in the sink Not my money, it's okay Had to make it my own way Dazed and I feel a way Ain't nobody give me pay I done came a long way It's like I'm tryna change my fate But I ain't tryna change my face But I'm just tryna go escape Found out what I'm 'posed to be Get a house right by the lake, uh Get a house right by the lake (Get a house right by the lake) I'm just tryna find my way (I'm just tryna find my way) I'm just tryna find my— (I'm just tryna find my—) I'm just tryna find my way (I'm just tryna find my way) I'm just tryna find my way (I'm just tryna find my way) Get a house right by the lake