From Time

Lyrics

Yeah He said he wanted to hold my fat in his strong hands I said "No ma'am" You're coming on a little strong I'm not saying that you are wrong Just got the wrong man You see, I am more than a fetish I'm insecure about my weight, it's just the way that I am And the way this world made me I know it sounds pathetic So I'm not telling you to regret it Been told my whole life that my body's wrong I don't know if you can relate to where I'm coming from So as much as I appreciate a compliment on my thickness It hurts at the same time like a sickness I get worried about my health and it fucks with me 'Cause my Doctor says that I'm okay but it stuck with me People say that life is short And for fat people it's shorter At the same time I see big guys and adore them I cover up my sensitivities like a foreskin And let it all hang out on stage and they applaud and Even if that's dope I feel like a gimmick 'Cause I put all that I am in this music, I live it Yeah, I'm in constant debate with myself 'Bout hatin' myself And I don't know if I hate my body or the hate in itself Facing my health is scarier than facing anything else I see friends eating the same amount of food that I'm eating And stay skinny for some reason It feels like my body commits treason And sometimes I feel like saying that I'm leaving I know some people think that I'm weak and I wish they knew that sometimes I believe them But really I'm one of the strongest people I know of And I'm not saying that just to show off But I have a list of accomplishments longer than the average guy Still I'm feeling lesser than an average guy So I say it aloud to myself 'cause I need to 'Cause if I don't your beliefs become alive And I need to show you that I don't need you And I'm free to be who I need to But hey nice to meet you I guess