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[Verse 1] It's not what I thought it would feel like The praise that's seeping in It goes as quick as it comes Like it's carried by some strong wind And I know what it seems like That I'm thinking on leaving again [Verse 2] Well, maybe I'm just a little shallow And if it's true that still waters run deep Well, then I've been swiftly moving Can the others see right through me? My masquerades and my illusions That I crafted so carefully Well, I'm just a broken illusion I'm not as tough as I oughta be [Instrumental Break] [Verse 3] Well, the flowers my mama bought me They only keep for two weeks And then they just become another reminder That he's never gonna write to me And I spoke my fears to my mother She said, "Honey, just let it be" And then she sent some pretty flowers With the hopes that my hurtin' they would ease [Verse 4] Well, you would think that I should feel happy But the truth is I feel spent And the numbers they've been climbing Just not enough to pay my rent I didn't used to think much of the numbers But now they're always racing through my head And I guess that I grew a little shallow When I forsook the words that my mama once said [Instrumental Break] [Verse 5] And now my thoughts are slow and twisted And I can't seem to break them down Which leaves my words false in meaning I feel sad when I speak out loud I thought I was to be a better lover When I got out of that town But I'm still no good in lovin' And lovin' only leaves me losin' anyhow [Outro] Yes, I'm still no good in lovin' And lovin' only leaves me losin' anyhow