BEDWETTER DEMOS

Lyrics

[Track 1: Haze of Interference] [Verse] What's underneath? I think I'm on the way out Take my pulse, spit directly in my mouth Count the cracks that's in the pavement in a bathroom in a basement I'm probably just a devil's form of laughs and entertainment Save your moral panic for the preacher or the president Or any of the other shit you babies think is relevant Drifting, floating up the stream, eyes are just a sucker's screen The Earth and how I see it are the rocks that I've been crushed between Foggy little planet whеre your groping hands to touch a scream Greener on thе other side, how about nothing's green? Bashful baby boy, so distracted by my toys Rode a tractor from Wyoming to Chicago, Illinois On a carpet of the 50 states, part of me disintegrates The only thing I'm left with is the part I can't articulate You never thought about you only You never had to worry about which part of you to show me You're just as stupid as you've always been Treat your stupid little problems like a molecule of oxygen You're never getting better, you're addicted to the madness You treat it like a muse, are you happy now, Travis? I could go inside a window and disappear Just observe, just overhear If I was glass, I'd revert back to sand Scattered through the sea, I could pass through your hands None of this could happen, nothing will happen The things that I believe could never, ever happen I'm standing by a microphone, I'm yelling at a wall Pick a thousand names, you're still nobody at all [Track 2: Unknown] I really thought today would be the start of something different Twisted thoughts of how I'm living that evaporate the minutes While I masturbate my illness in an incoherent stillness Confused if I need help or if insanity is brilliance I really thought today I had a chance to just escape it Or erase it or at least subdue compulsions where I chase it Hold my breath beneath the poison eyes open up And face it, analyze interpretations while my life corrupts adjacent The homie told me that this can't go on no longer This is something I can conquer if I had someone to talk to Someone who could study all my particles of sadness How I'm flirting with the un-return from suffocating madness Sniffing through my illnesses with academic lenses Exploring my detachment, my delusions are relentless Now I'm back out at the entrance with the same shit same brain Came to you for help and then you shut me in the rain I really thought today someone would recognize my courage As I handed over power just to reconcile my urges That I needed something urgent. I was eager just to learn it I just wanna be a person, Lord I'm weary of this burden [Track 3: Man Wearing a Helmet] [Verse 1] Crouched down by the tree at his neighbors He liked the way the bark ripped off like paper He pretended he was Superman, eyes had lasers Every step he took turned earth into craters Little brown jacket, Lee jeans with a cuff Bowl cut, blue and yellow mismatched Chucks He's a sitting duck, didn't hear the car pull up Thought his arm broke when they shoved him in the trunk [Verse 2] Brake light, night light, choking on his tear snot "Fear not" summarize the voice within an earshot Muffled through the seats, stale smoke He can hear Scott-Heron singing "Home Is Where the Hatred Is" Home is where they took him from and he don't know who's taken him Puffy eyes, pissed pants, sore throat, scream like a whisper Fists beat the backseat every time he whimpers He can see his own breath, it's the middle of the winter X-Men hologram card that was in his coat A single source of hope as they speedin' up the road He traded comics for it, he got a sleeve for its protection He's just glad he got it with him, it's his one possession He miss his mom's affection He miss the dinosaur blanket on the bed that he slept in Miss throwing sticks so the dog would go fetch 'em Missed makin' forts in the woods with his best friend [Verse 3] Car stops, door slams Wonders who he is, he just doesn't understand Chafed legs, denim tears, piss, vomit Wishing he could change into his blue pajamas Superman logo with a cape on it Then maybe he'd escape into space like a comet He hears an engine's sputter, fatigued from the travel He listens as footsteps grind in the gravel Maybe he can leave if he promise not to tattle The trunk wasn't Eden but he knew he was the apple Streetlights flooded as the trunk popped open Hoping for a relief or a reason he was chosen Lurking was a silhouette with unfamiliar hands Now he's a shaking mess, carried 'cause he couldn't stand Bluish glow of television flickers in a stairwell Led into a lair, he got sick from how the air smells He's with his parents in his brain, this is their hell He felt the worry in his bones, he don't fare well Against these monsters in this crypt, in this hidden jail All this time passed, I'm still scared that I'm there still [Hook] All these fucking years I just don't remember All this fucking time I just don't remember Did I lose my mind? I just don't remember Did I die, am I lying? I just don't remember All these fucking years I just don't remember All this fucking time I just don't remember Did I lose my mind? I just don't remember Did I die, am I lying? I just don't remember All these fucking years I just don't remember All this fucking time I just don't remember Did I lose my mind? I just don't remember Did I die, am I lying? I just don't remember [Bridge] Was there a life before the one I know now? Was I lost and just never ever found? Was I found and then forced to forget Just a secret that nobody can admit? Was there a life before the one I know now? Was I lost and just never ever found? Was I found and then forced to forget Just a secret that nobody can admit?