These Drugs

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I don't wanna do drugs anymore If you saw me through the eyes of a bathroom stall Your skin would crawl I'm high But I am not a sycophant for a good time I only wanted to escape my mind For one night, know what happiness feels like But the nightmare I'm ignoring is darker in the morning [Pre-Chorus] It's a band-aid on a broken arm It's a siren sounding out alarm A fucked-up version of self-harm And it's louder than a cry for help When I destroy my mental health Because I don't respect myself [Chorus] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is cry Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is cry [Verse 2] I don't wanna go to bed alone So I let another stranger take me home I drink to numb the pain And you would do it too if you were sharing my brain Everybody that I love gets hurt And I'm learning to believe that I just deserve The demons I'm ignoring And the regret in the morning [Pre-Chorus] It's a fucking domino effect A prison cell inside my head A trauma that I can't forget And it's louder than a cry for help When I destroy my mental health Because I fucking hate myself [Chorus] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is cry Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is Cry, cry I only ever Cry, cry I only ever Cry, cry I only ever Cry, cry I only ever [Chorus] Damned if I do and bored if I don't And I should get clean again but I won't I told you that I don't need help Because I lie to myself I'm damned if I do and bored if I don't And I should get clean again but I won't I wanna be someone else Because I'm scared of myself Sometimes I'm scared of myself [Chorus] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is cry Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is Cry, cry I only ever Cry, cry I only ever Cry, cry I only ever Cry, cry I only ever cry