Lyrics

[Verse 1] Where I'm from, it's better than a lot of places Because at least bodies will get left by dumpsters Where roaches can look like friends if you smile at the right angles The right drugs can turn your night into feedback The wrong girl will ask if she can please you You tell yourself you don't need that I'm twenty something, seen more that I'd care to Watch a grown man shit his own pants Tell yourself that's your father Watch a woman collapse and cry on the floor in your lap Tell yourself that's your mother She tells herself you're her son Fuck fun I got a gun in the closet Tell myself I don't want this Crawl out the window like a worm I'm a loser But tell the world I won't end 'til I'm winning Watch a wound weep and never heal Tell myself where my heart went See the black dot the apartment [?] that demon to destruction Last week the devil in my dream won marriage Now what the fuck am I supposed to tell him I'm walking down the block in all black With my fists like [?] If I die, don't be mad Don't forget this I'm a dad what am I supposed to do different Step up, fuck off I'm just beginning [Chorus] The big boys always win Sink or dive into the deep end Fucker (motherfucker) Motherfucker (motherfucker) Now step up, and fuck off Can't always play it off Always hurt, Always lost Always costs [Verse 2] My heart it gotta sin (It got to) Because my mind doesn't bend Renegade BLACKIE's back again And this time he ain't making friends There's no help you can lend See yourself to the bin From the help that you get dealt that I felt from within They say Jesus melts all sins well fucker I ain't met him Tell my mother give my name to the wind Another angry nigga with a pen With a six hundred sixty six cross their chest [?] Up in the bed Just found out I might have autism I'm living off [?] I'm living off spicy chicken ramen I'm living off my high school girlfriend I'll be waiting until ten Gotta learn how to save not spend [Chorus] The big boys always win Sink or dive into the deep end Fucker (motherfucker) Motherfucker (motherfucker) Now step up, and fuck off Can't always play it off Always hurt, Always lost Always costs [Verse 3] This is a demon city Huge and dark and empty But embrace yourself Grab your friends, hold 'em close Fuck it We sleep in the same bed Fuck it Wear the same clothes Fuck it Live lives that no one knows Ok, so fuck it My only fear you won't understand Well fuck it If this is permanent Then I want more than this It's just you and me And the idea of escaping the same plate What if there's no thing as heaven's gates Then fuck it I want more than this if this is permanent It is possible to be living and not existing [Chorus] The big boys always win Sink or dive into the deep end Fucker (motherfucker) Motherfucker (you motherfucker) Now step up, and fuck off You can't always play it off Always hurt, Always lost Always costs (how you like that shit?) The big boys always win Sink or dive into the deep end Fucker (motherfucker) To live is to suffer And to survive is to find meaning in that suffering Now step up, and fuck off You can't always play it off Always hurt, Always lost Always costs The big boys always win Sink or dive into the deep end Fucker (motherfucker) Motherfucker