Testing Me

Lyrics

[Chorus] I still got some struggles but He testin' me I pray that everyday He bringin' out the best in me Gotta keep my cool, even when the devil mess with me Gotta watch my moves, react with love they ain't expecting me I ain't gon' think 'bout what they sayin' no more stressin' me Cause they ain't God they not the ones who be blessin' me They see I changed I know it happened unexpectedly But I know it was Gods plan this was my destiny [Verse 1] For a couple years I been lost to tell you the truth I didn't wanna get close so I got further from you Started to neglect my parents imma do what imma do Ain't nobody gunna stop me ain't no way I'm gon' lose My Heart bleedin' but I'm fightin' off these demons Pray to God for more healin' tired of hidin' these feelings Been through lot but He just testin' me he's got a good reason Gotta stay strong no one said that this was gunna be easy I grew up in the church but left I wasn't looking back Like I've lived this long without him look at me I'm still intact I been bruised cut and robbed, double crossed I been attacked I've been gone from home for months making money from the trap I was tryna heal with the pills and the potions Didn't wanna deal with the pain and emotions Mama told me to be careful gotta watch where you goin' Pops told me you got God on your side and you know it [Chorus] I still got some struggles but He testin' me I pray that everyday He bringin' out the best in me Gotta keep my cool, even when the devil mess with me Gotta watch my moves, react with love they ain't expecting me I ain't gon' think 'bout what they sayin' no more stressin' me Cause they ain't God they not the ones who be blessin' me They see I changed I know it happened unexpectedly But I know it was Gods plan this was my destiny [Verse 2] I got a hundred different problems I know people doubting me But I got so many angles and they lookin down on me And I'm tryna do better make my mama proud of me And my circle got smaller I'm careful who's surrounding me The devil on my shoulder he still tryna do his work Tryna slow me down and make me go back to what I was before Tryna get me back in the life where I was suffering and hurt Couldn't figure out my purpose didn't care what I was worth I was burnin' in the fire with sinners and my addictions Cold heart held me back from my purpose and my ambitions Wrong cards that were dealt to me tired of bein' a victim I was blind couldn't see all my blessings through what Im missing, yea I was never home cause I had to be busy If I was by myself alone that would be risky If I had time to think the depression hit quickly So I'd pour a lil drink and get up in a jiffy [Chorus] I still got some struggles but He testin' me I pray that everyday He bringin' out the best in me Gotta keep my cool, even when the devil mess with me Gotta watch my moves, react with love they ain't expecting me I ain't gon' think 'bout what they sayin' no more stressin' me Cause they ain't God they not the ones who be blessin' me They see I changed I know it happened unexpectedly But I know it was Gods plan this was my destiny